Know what?

Jus came back from home.

Anyway,
To people who tag my cbox (those that i don't know),

I do not understand why i have so many visitor in my blog now.
even after i had removed my link from Fridae.

Didnt you guys feel tired when it comes to comparing to other people?
I mean like, you see, it's my blog, and it's me,
there's nothing to compare when the people that you compared with are different people with different looks and also different character.

I'm not like sad or angry when being compared, but jus confused whereby why do people have to compare?

love yourself, love your character.

I'm not pretty,
I'm not sexy,
I'm not cute,
I'm not some super perfect girlfriend or partner.
My english is not perfect as well.
I have bad temper and so on.

I know all these.

I'm jus living my life.


No one is perfect. you jus have to be yourself,
I always believe that, as long as you smile, and jus be yourself,
u will look the best.

anyway to Anmoymous,
I agree with you that nira is very pretty, and have a good character.
I totally agree.
I enjoy reading her blog too.

I have my life back,
enjoying and living happily.
Suddenly i jus became high profile, i feel so weird.
I mean like, whether they heard of me from whoever or whatever,
I jus think that i would prefer to be low profile.
Whether is there any bad rumours in the outside world (which makes people know about my name), I do not really care. Because, i did nothing bad or whatever, and i treat everyone equally, with love and fairness.

I'm not a flirt, not a player.
whoever think that i am, too bad, i guess those who really knows me, will only know whether i am or not.

Call me a bitch, it has no effect in provoking me.
Because i know that i'm not being one.
And nowadays, people jus keep mis-using the word "bitch", till it has no meaning at all.
Even my friends all each other bitch jus for the fun of it.



Yawns.
I had a wonderful dinner and love all my friends. =]

Am going to bathe soon.

Retarded

Some retarded person posted my unglam pic.(nt the one above)

Thanks heh.

Tsk.

Was irritated. because was taken without my permission.
TSK

idiot.

Watever ah.

tonight is probably the earliest night i ever sleep.

Night people.

Tsk tsk

after reading your blog.

you jus reminded me again.

11 kicks and 1 slap on the thigh.

=D

thank dear. =]

I shall rmb it.

I think i will write in my note book or organiser some where. =]

Yea, i should.

=D

Random

Jus reach home not long.

Nth really wanna blog about.

Kinda emo-ing as well and like ston-ing.

yea.

I enjoyed friday nights.
out, smoke, talk, crap, eat.

my school work and work work is piling up.
and i'm feeling damn fucking sick with work already.

even though am a workaholic.
still.
am not a super ultra strong robot or sth.

*yea smoking. Quiting. trying to. (but with my job, it doesn't seem to work)

As long as one is happy,
I'm contented.
No struggling,
nothing.


night people.

oh no.

is good morning people.
rise and sun!

It's isn't a prob

It's not a problem at all actually.

Not a big deal.

But use words wisely.
use your vulgarities properly.

...

U sound joking, i wont get into it too much.

But ya.


Irritated mood now.

Damn Hunry

I'm damn damn hungry now.

And i have nth to eat at home!!

Damn it.

Seriously, i hungry till i very uncomfortable.

damn it.

how lah how.

Some recent random pic.

Yeap yeap.

HUNGRY!

Smile

Smile though your heart is breaking.
Smile even though it's aching
When there are clouds in the sky,
You'll get by.

If you smile through your tears and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find life is still worthwhile
If you just, smile.

Go fucking away

1. I don't fucking love u

2. I don't fucking like u

3. I don't fucking miss you

4. I fucking HATE you.

Try sending in all the sms or calls.

I wont do anything to it except jus to delete then away eve be4 i read them.

Fucking stay away from me and move the hell on.

And one last thing,

I will nv get together with you no matter how much u changed, whether u are rich or not, or even u have anything that is like good.

Being with you again will nv ever fucking happen.

NEVER!

Blah

* am wearing jus my badminton tee shirt and shorts.
super super slack today.
=]

Friday 20th march

Happy birthday to jacob.

Skip the morning class, and attend the 2nd one.

till 4pm.

suppose to catch a movie much there's no nice seats left.

so postpone to the next day.

Went home, slacked.
went out to meet people.

Talked things out.
understand the whole situation.
Drinking, boozing.
tipsy and high.

went home, and fall aslp in front of my laptop.

Sat 21 march.

Happy Birthday to mummy.

Went out or movie.
Went home to change to thicker clothes cux very very cold.

MRT-ed down to bugis.

Dinner all together as a family.

Seperated.

meet yanru.
chill at Haji.

walked to shaw mac.
eat supper.

Rae came over.
coffee for her.

home.


am home now.
There's a lot of things i know.
And i'm damn fucking disappointed in you.

Don't deserve my replies.
Don't deserve anything from me.
No longer.
No more.

Whatever you do,
Stay away from me.
because, you had thrown yr face till there's nothing much left.
and don't blame on ppl for why u throw your face.

Whole story out.
Satisfied.
I heard what i think i deserved to know.

Am all right about u.

I made the right choice.
I chose the right road.

depend on other people don't make u stronger.

Yes, you are jus a weakling.

It's already so late. and i need to go out tmr for school work earlier.

bah.

night people.

Sry guys if i'm a lil emo recently.
am working on it.

too many things on my mind.

nah, not about "her".
I'm already so fucking over it, and am leading a happier life now.

hugs people hugs.

bahahah

Silly as always.

Can't believe it.

A get away

I hope

I hope

i hope

Lu la la lu

Bah.

Am bored.

and emo?

haha. maybe.

Went all the way to yishun jus to find yanru and rae for prata!

haha.

nice dinner cum supper we have.

=]

on my way back on the bus,

thinking and thinking.

stoning and stoning.


alighted bus,
an sit at my park, a bench.
with no one ard, and sing.
softly.

after 15-30min later,
continue my way back home.

The night is so cooling and quiet.
It's a night good for enjoying the silence.
to jus close your eyes, and enjoy the breeze.

Nice.

Closing down

What i have been doing for today?

1. closing down of friendster.
2. deleting friends from facebook.
3. stoning.
4. sketches.
5. jogging.
6. clearing out the photo from facebook.
7. delete the blog layout that i do not need.
8. think alot, but happy thoughts.
9. telling myself the thing i need to do and not to do.
10. clearing out pictures that i find them pointless to keep.
11. tear off my laptop skin. (decided to change a new one)


Before (above)
After (Above)
*i threw away the flowers that is behind the laptop.

12. clearing my table.
13. eating sweets.
14. wash my containers and so on.

and a lot and a lot of stuff.
It's my most fruitful day.
=D

it's like spring cleaning time.
can throw, throw.
can cancel, cancel.

whether be it is in virtual life or real life.

I did all these is because i wan a new life.
I going to step out of everything.
Having my school and work and of course friends as my 1st priority.

How about relationship?
When it comes, it will.
I do not rush it. I nv did.

I love the way all my friends treat me.
I know they love me alot.
And i do as well.

Having been going home 5-6 am in the morning for the past 3-4 days.
It's holiday why not.

Now that i'm gg to start school tmr,
i will have to take note not to tired myself.

Sometimes, i need to "power off" also.
*grins

Oh ya people,
Did i mention i quiting smoking?
yes i am, and this current pack will be the last pack.
so i wont smoke unless i have to. Like work.
*winks

Ok, I'm here, swearing that i'm going to quit smoking.
(unless work, my friends knows why)

i already promised my mum.
I promised my frens, and they are helping me with it.

I love the way i'm going to change my lifestyle.

I feel much more happier now.

smile people smile.

*i'm staying in what i am. i'm jus changing my lifestyle.
I guess this sentence only i know what it means. =]

changing

My blog will be a blog whereby people can no longer tag and comment.

Comment disable.
Cbox locked (maybe removing it for good)

Blog MAYBE CHANGING
And lock for good.

I'm clearing away my stuff.
throwing away those useless stuffs.
Those stuff that i used to have the same and was given by u, or even remind me of u.
I throw away everything and i buy some stuff myself.

I do not want to share the same thing as u anymore.

I'll feel disgusted.

Blocked and deleted.

It feel so freaking good throwing away all those stuff.

I was like "YAY! Throw, Finally!"

Wat i was thinking.
It's going to be forever forgotten.
It's going to be a history that is too lame or not worth to even rmb.

I totally love the stuff that i bought.
Though its a lil tight on budget, But i need those stuff!

Happily ever after!
Finally.

Bs

Don't fucking bullshit with me.

Had enough.

This time is unforgivable.

Fuck you.

All you bull shit.
Your denies is so fake.
It doesn't tally.

i didnt accuse you.
u are jus the main suspect.
If you really didnt do,
fine.
If you did and still in denial, i guess, you better watch out for your own ass.

Fuck you

Fuck you

Fuck all the people who irritates me.

Fuck people who jus can't leave me alone.

Fuck the PERSON who is a helpless.

Fuck it!

I love the one who really stood by me.
Hugs and kisses.

Zouk-ing

Had herstory party at zouk yesterday night.
and i only manage to reach home, at around 8 plus when zouk close at 3am.

why?

i shall not comment much.
It was fun till my mood jus went down the drain jus like that.
my friends know what happen that night.

it's more than enough.

reach home, change and everything.

finally sleeps till now.
and wakes up.

after about 5 hours of sleeps?

hmm.

Ok, zilian pictures from last time.
hmm....

anyway, finally get to meet a friend, which is really nice.

i'm already had enough of all the shits, and i had already ans or tell you whatever i want to say.
so yup. enough said.

"做贱自己"
"I'm being a total bitch."

These is what i got when i'm jus dancing away with my fren. wonderful.

you know what,
this is not what you say "做贱自己" "I'm being a total bitch.", when i'm jus merely dancing away.

If i'm jus fucking around and go around the club to kiss every single person i saw.
and that is called
"做贱自己"
"I'm being a total bitch."

And even though u say all these,
i dun feel anything, i'm don't even feel i'm being offended.

Because i'm not being one, and
Because i know that you have no rights to say me.
not because u being a bitch or whatsoever,
is because, we got nothing to do with each other and we are merely friends.
so you are not fit to grab hold of me and interfere.

Enough said.
*yawns

Ah shit

Yawns~

Jus woke up.

so tired. damn.
later maybe need to go simlim.

shit.

i jus feel like nua-ing at home for now, be4 partying tonight.
hmm.

sian!

back to playing my games.

actually i have school work to do, but then again,
i dun feel like doing them. =]

tata~

Friendship day for us is coming

It's coming.

=]

i wonder. what to do! =]

Secret by The Pierces

Got a secret,
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save.
Better lock it in your pocket,
Taking this one to the grave.
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said.
'Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

Why do you smile
Like you have told a secret?
Now you're telling lies
'Cause you have sworn to keep it.
But no one keeps a secret,
No one keeps a secret.
Why when we do our darkest deeds
Do we tell?
They burn in our brains,
Become a living hell.
'Cause everybody tells,
Everybody tells.

Got a secret,
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save.
Better lock it in your pocket,
Taking this one to the grave.
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said.
'Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

Look into my eyes,
Now you're getting sleepy.
Are you hypnotized
By secrets that you're keeping?
I know what you're keeping,
I know what you're keeping.

Got a secret,
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save.
Better lock it in your pocket,
Taking this one to the grave.
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said.
'Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

[Spoken]
- Alison?
- Yes, Catherine?
- I have something I want to tell you, but
You have to promise never to tell anyone.
- I promise.
- Do you swear on your life?
- I swear on my life.
[End spoken]

Swore you'd never tell.
You swore you'd never tell.
You swore you'd never tell.
You swore you'd never tell.

Got a secret,
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save.
Better lock it in your pocket,
Taking this one to the grave.
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said.
'Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

Got a secret,
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save.
Better lock it in your pocket,
Taking this one to the grave.
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said.
'Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

Got a secret,
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save.
Better lock it in your pocket,
Taking this one to the grave.
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said.
'Cause two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

Yes, two can keep a secret
If one of them is dead.

Yes, two can keep a secret
If one of us is
Dead

please wait for your photo to be taken

Smile people.

smile.


For me,

I shall jus emo for now.

bye now.

Holiday

Finally, it's term break. which is only a week sadly.

but then better than nothing.

however tmr i have a make up class for 6 hours straight, which is damn tiring.

and a submission. damn.
but i'm done with it.

jus left the printing and mounting only.

=]

ok.

i'm jus being really bored at home, so i jus take pictures. =]

zilian maybe.

at least i dun have every since post in my blog to have my own pictures.

so i'm not that "zilian"

got it?

Anyway, today is BEN BEN's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HUGS AND KISSES. =]


=]

New Quiz up! (Get to know yourself better)

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Quiz!!

the result of the quiz that i took "The Real You"
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

anyway, here's my result.

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

It's been..

quite some time since i last blog.

okay.

maybe a few days.

hmpf.

Oh well.

Yesterday was sean's 18th birthday!!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!

was working yesterday.
so i actually told them that i'm wont be able to make it to PLAY.

but in the end, i surprised them.
but appearing after work.

nice reaction they have when they see me.

sean and yanru came running towards me for hugs.

hahaha.

I left quite early after that.
too tired.

btw, it's yanru in the pic, she's dancing away.
unable to take a nice pic of them cux they all like very busy partying. hahaha


a few days ago, i went to far east, and they have this NOISE event.
and i say people doing graffiti outside.
nice. 2 out of the 4 that i had the photo of the graffiti taken.

Hip hop Bull dog


This is my favourite.
By Mr B. (sign off at the lower right corner)

I hope all the drama have ended. and i do not want any season 2.

And my bad, i have been skipping waitressing job recently.
falling sick.

sigh.

I'm so tired now/ damn fucking tired.

Most of the submission due this week, and it's stressing each and single one of us out.
So tired. staying back after school every single day to complete the group project.
sigh.

I need a break badly.

I want to go clubbing.
It's been so long since i last went clubbing and had fun.

I have been coughing badly, having throat irritation and stomach upset.
i think next will be fever.

Ever since i start school, i nv have a proper rest.
firstly first, i don't sleep early,
secondly, I'm like working my ass off. Yea, I am a workaholic. I don't even know is it a good or a bad thing.

Bad bad bad.

I want to go on a long break.
a relaxing break.

sigh.

Tired.

Signing off~

PS:
to the psychotic person aka stalker.
This is not what you gonna get if you continue to bug me and i continue to see your name appearing in my blog.
go fuck off and get a fucking life.
if not, well, you can wait for a call, by the police maybe.

Decided to post this up.

(~~~) <--- it's by me.

oliviaong says:
hi jiselle,

u are so cute and irrestible...what kind of gals do you prefer, shall we meet;) where do you frequent most of the time....can we have sex.... (WTF? *digusted) u r so sexy and irrestible... (PUKE)dun worry, i am a kind and good gal...i am 25 years, working as a treasury analyst at an oil co...what else would u like to know about me before u decide to meet me...

Jiselle (ME) says:
i don't go for bisexual.
i only interested in butch, andro

oliviaong says:
hi hi, i am quite butchy (Sorry, but i only eat halah pork, you have?), can we meet....hope we can have some good fun soon, cant wait...love u (hello? i dont even know you)

Jiselle (ME) says:
i'm also butchy as well.

but too bad.
i'm not interested in you.

so ya.

no picture nth. don't expect ppl to get to know u like that.

oliviaong says:
I am really interested, how and what can i make you do to be interested in me, your blog is so interesting, lurvse(wth)

Jiselle (ME) says:
er.
y not u tell me how to let u not to get interested in me.
thanks.

oliviaong says:
What will u be doing tomo night...shall we meet in the evening..i usually hang out at paragon after work...can we meet...wher shall i pick you up from...my office is near vivo,harbour front, wher can we meet...i am convenient anywher....do you like fat or skinny pp tall or short....

Jiselle (ME) says:
I like tall ppl and skinny ppl.
but u not tall enough.

so ya.

oliviaong says:
we haven met...maybe you may like me'-00 maybe we can try out.... (no need meet, already know that i wont be interested)

Jiselle (ME) *nv reply*

oliviaong says:
by e way, can i chat with you in your blog (admirer) is my name as fridae have limiations...ya i am not tall 1.65 only (SHORT)...not skinny used to be skinny, but put on 10 over kg within 1 yr..65 kg as dining almost everyday....i am not bad looking, that what others say...please give me a chance to know u loves (Nv will you have the chance)

Jiselle (ME) *nv reply*

oliviaong says:
Hi...I had read your blog, can we chat using your cbox once i saw your blog...i cant get over you...please dun ask me to foget about you as i really cant...cheers fridae like got limiations on emails...cant reply you just now, guess its past 12, thus have another 10 emails to send to you-...nice chating with you u are so cute;; (?! CUTE?)

Jiselle(ME) says:
seriousy, stop flooding my blog

oliviaong says:
cant sleep over you...pending for your reply...please talk to me....or can we start off as friends...tink i had scared you off...please forgive me for my wrong approach...its meant to be a flirty joke...no harms about it, may i treat u to dinner or drink to apologise for my mistake...jiselle (nice name) please reply....may i have the honour to treat you dinner...what time shall i fetch you from your school or home or anywhere....i am free from evening onwards....do u stay near the east or west...i am near the east....hope i can see u sometime if u choose not to meet me....i m very nice, dun be afraid...leaving messages at ya blog as cant email u much more as fridae got limits on emails...........i had recently start working out at gyms to slim down for your sake i will lose the 10 kgs gained for the past 1 year...give me another 3 months...i will work towards your ideal skinny weight..height wise sorry i know i am a bit short only at most 1.65cm....maybe i shold tink of ways to look taller to match your ideal...u like butch...i can be am a bit butch, sometime femme, for your sake i can be a full butch, please dun reject my sincere friendship....may we meet tomo..
(too lengthy for me to read)

Jiselle (ME) says:
Tell u wat,
i'm not scared of u or even am i frightened by u.

i'm really nt interested at all for fucking god sake.

and dun make yrself so despo and low.

so ya.
if u realy wanna go gym,
best, please workout until u disappear.

oliviaong says:
okay, it's all my fault, please forgive me...tink i had annoyed you...sorry for angering you as making you angry would be my last intention, but i am very sincere in knowing you....quite sad as running out of emails to talk to you....in this case, may i have your email address to email you...dun tink i can ever sleep tonite...waiting for your favourable reply...i am begining to adore you more and more sec...u r so special and kind....u got a great smile...love u... (say love me again and i'll make sure you wont jus get these)

Jiselle (ME) says:
.

er,
seriously,
u're so irritating.
and ya.

SO...
fuck off and die please

no point for me to explain when u acting like some psycho.

oliviaong says:
sorry...my fault, my approach is a bit too over...jeselle...i am sorry please forgive me and pretend nothing had happened...can we start afresh...i just hope to know you...please...give me a chance, take it as pity me also can...i had no friends in singapore as i had been studying in perth after sec 4, thus all my college and uni friends in perth...pls take pity and be my friend can...i know it's my fault and i shld not use those flirty words on you sorry jeselle, may i talk nicely with you, pls dun be afraid of me....can we just be good friends...u r cute adn kind like an angel, thus you caught my attention hope to know you...may i have your email add as soon i will hit the 10 mess limited in fridae adn i will be very sad not to be abel to talk to u...

Jiselle (ME) *nv reply*


As you all can see, It's is what a psychotic person can do. seriously.
I'm a scorpio, I pay back double. once start, unless i'm satisfied or paid pay, i'll stop.

This is jus only 1 quarter only.

Try me, continue and we shall see.

ENJOY READING!

*ps: the words is not edited, it's all copy and paste, so you can tell by her english.

=]

Crazy pictures, crazy friends.

Such lovable friends i have.



My "couldn't be bothered" face. hahahah.


Horror movie!

anyway,
I'm in the state of shock and now is slightly better already.
thought that I may jus die like that, because i was cooking maggie mee and i didnt realise that i turn on the gas but not the fire so when i realised, i switched it off and on immediately. and boom, a ball of fire jus burst out, touching my hands and clothes. It's a good thing that my clothes didnt catch fire. and my skin jus a bit red red.
sigh.

That's was really close.

Making clear

1st,
I didn't Tell any of my friends that i'm going drinking.

2nd,
I don't have any intention to go boat quay or clarke quay for a drink.

3rd,
If it is my friends who play you out, BE brave and tell me which friend of mine played you out?
I'm very interested to know. Maybe i should thank them.
Because you deserved it. =]

4th,
I don't recall me giving your fucking number to anyone for fun, i only did to my closest friends to check whether they know this fucking number anot.
and i trust my closest friends that they wont do something so fucking childish.

5th,
You have been playing this game by yourself all along. I'm not as free as you are to play this type of psychotic, childish game. HELLO?! How old are you already? it's time for you to wake up or no, GROW UP.

6th,
Finally, I can have my peace.
Because if these continue, I will call the police or make a police report.
Don't dare it.
Because once people do, I will do it.
Don't Believe? Try continue all these fucking harassment.

I would love to go the police station and make reports.
=]

Tata~