Being judged.

Shit people who dunno me well and judged me.

To being with, one should not judge anyone.

So, fuck to people that judged other people.

Human who judged, make them become the low-class level of human side.

They make people realise how pathetic they are, how ugly they are.

Seriously,

U make my relationship sucks now.

u make it so unstable.

and now, u made me so tired of giving in anymore.

I am no longer going to change.

I am no longer to try.

I do not give a shit anymore.

I do not care whether who is getting the blames in the end,

because, i realised that u are just nothing to me. not even a speck of dust.

so FUCK OFF.

Because of what is happening,

I went to poison myself with more cig, more alcohol.

But apparently, set aside the poisoning, I am glad that, i finally realised who is wearing the mask and who is not.

bye now.

7th week

It has been 7 weeks since school start. and last 3 weeks are like shit.
Submissions, consultation, and wasting tons of money on the printing and reprinting.

I used all my angbaos money on the printing and buying those material.

At first i thought i could have some spare cash to do some shopping for myself.
now i seriously doubt so.

Pimples keep popping out.
due to monthly "aunt's visit", tons of stress, and late night sleeps which happens every single night. damn.
my back is aching due to the stupid chair that is in one of my fav colour, but the design really sucks. it's like those kopitiam chair.
Guess i need to go IKEA for study chair soon. If not, i think my back wont take it anymore.
*provided i have the time to.

Work, study, work, study, work, study
That's my life.
boohoo.

Need to go back to do my packaging design soon.
which is due on wednesday.
And need to do a illustration for wednesday class as well.

alright.
will blog soon.

Tears

The picture is being photoshop-ed for the tears part.

but now, deep down my heart, and since yesterday. i have been crying.
jus keep on crying.

cry till i cant think anymore.

Sins

Everyone have their sins.
They need to pay back their sins.

What's my sins?
Living throughout my life, i did bad stuffs. i did good stuffs.
That's life, isn't it?

What goes around comes around.
Karma.

I have been doing some reading.
and I just keep thinking my my head about sins, karmas, and paying back kinda stuff.
after reading just make me keep thinking about my 23 years of life.

time to slp.
good night.

Back memories

MSW FINAL Gown

1st time ever wear such a stunning gown.

Time of the month

LA time.

feel like shit now.

gf went supperclub.
i'm at home chionging homework.

just finish not long ago.

heading to bed soon. need to be up at 7.

damn all the stupid assignments.

i am so in a fucked up mood now.

and i can feel that my cramp is coming.

Now i know

Now i know,
how much do i love u.

Without you with me for like gg to 5 days, i miss u like crazy.
how i miss u mean how i love u also.
so if i miss u like crazy, that also means i love u like crazy.

Less than 24 hour u will be back in sg. but i will only be able to see u on wed. =[

In love like crazy.

='[

I miss u like crazy.

sry peeps, i am emo-ing.

Boohoo hoo~

I miss you like crazy.

I still got 4 more days then can see you. =[

CNY eve

It's a night for reunion dinner.

I just finished mine, together with my aunties, mummy and brother.
hmmm.

supposed to go river angbao later.
but i still thinking to go anot.
heard alot of problems between the relative side, internal conflict.
guess than my angbao will be much lesser already.

every year my ang baos already veru little already, tis time it's going to go much lesser.

sigh.

dinner was simple and nice.
and the homemake cheese cake was fantastic. i am addicted to it.

i miss my gf so much.
i have not heard from her for more than 24 hours, whether be it by text or call.
i am still waiting.

interesting stuf to share

Who say snail is slow?

"Fruitily" delicious pancakes

In a rush

Have been staying back in school till 10 plus,
then rush home, have "dinner" and shower.
then on my lappie and start thinking and doing my assignment till about 4am in the morning,
sleep, then wake up the next day in the morning, then go to school again.

the whole cycle will jus go round and round again and again.

I feel super sleepy, super tired, and my back is like fucking aching away.

Feel super stress too.

boohoo~

That's all about me and my school.

My life now, excluding school activities, is still the same. somehow have not been going out after school. jus school and home, school and home.

CNY is coming.
I have gotten my clothes, my shoes. and accessories.
nothing much to get already i guess.

I'm satisfied with what i gotten for cny,
simple and "so me" type of clothes. love it.

ok. shall stop now. back to school work~

tata~

It's the 1st time, and it' unforgetable

Went to PLAY yesterday.

was having a good time, until when the crowd goes wild.
Having guys in a lesbian party is totally a wrong thing. gay guys are fine, but most of them look straight.
Gay guys danced and the crowd is cheering. he is super hot. Everyone is high and cheered on the gay guy. And then, a straight indian guy appeared in the center of the crowd. kinda like challenging the gay guy. An then things happen, the gay guy start to take of his shirt and belt. butch unbutton his shorts, but it's not taken off.
he went over and show bare butt to the indian guy.
and in the end, the indian guy took off his pants, including his boxer.

A major turn off.
totally gross. I felt sth wrong when the crowd goes wild, and things happened. Gross level to the max! I am racist. i don't really care.
More and more guys appear in lesbian party which is like making it so weird.

anyway that is event 1.

here comes event number 2.

1st time in my life, i got into a fight, or maybe almost got into a fight.
with a gay guy somemore.

Actually i wan a girl to apologise since she push me damn hard, but she is stubborn. and being a bitch, she was barking away.
nv in my life, i saw such a bitch and bimbo, whereby they may appear they are not scared, but guess what?! she is a coward. she kinda like asking her fren to help her settle, and she dun even dare to look and scold us while looking at us? she keep mumbling her words towards her frens but dot directly at us?
It's really stupid.
Her frens all say she is drunk. so? If u cant drink well, then dun fucking drink more than what u can drink.
then i think the gay guy kinda drunk (different gay guy on the dance floor), and he came over and jus shouted and trying to hit me and everyone else with his handbag. then i jus went over and ask him like what is problem? it doesnt involved him at all. i rmb he keep saying "want to fight? come! I'm a man!" one thing for sure, i do not care whether u're a man or not when it comes to having my gf being pushed and W being pushed as well!
After that he grab hold of my hand, pulling me down or sth, i struggled and then he let go. because my gf went to punch him near his nose or mouth.
then both of them struggle!
I try to pull my gf away from him. every is pulling me, my gf and W away from the crazy guy.
I think the gay guy kinda pushed W, and send her to hit the chair or sth. then the next thine i know, i hear W throw a punch at his temple, which i think make him bleed because he got a eyebrow piercing.
Police came, and straight away, the gay guy apologised. it's like he suddenly sober already.

then or that BITCH, she was lucky. and i heard is them who called the police.
God bless them when we get to see them again.
cux apparently my gf dun wan to let this matter rest.
Yes, and that's my gf.

So many drama within like 2 hours.
we are not hiding anything so we are not worry about anything.

Anyone touches my frens and my gf,
will need people to bless them.

goodnight.

5th

Happy 5th month.

but u are out clubbing.
intend to kiss u and whisper "happy 5th month" to you.

but once your fren called, and my plan ruined.
so i have to travel back alone, waiting for bus in town alone after u board your fren's cab, at 1130pm.

I jus feel, it's not a very happy monthsary today.

i love you very very much.