Some random stuff

Some random things since i jus finish my ppt.
So decided to jus hang online a while be4 slp.

Tadah~


Ok.
I seriously is very retarded.
Makeupless, and also jus edit the lighting to make it brighter only.


The following is a gift from my friend.
than you for the gift.
I like it.

It's hand made!

Pink is not my colour.
But who cares, i like how it look.

=]

thanks again.

Time to slp. =]

wat makes u tink i hav time to entertain u?

To the hopeless psycho:

Wat makes u so sure tat its my friends tat call you?

given your kind of approach, am sure anyone would have pranked you!

we dun even know if you're the kind who gives your number freely and promises "Marriot".

Loser.

Signing off,
Jiselle

Dum

Dum dee dee dum dee dee dum dum DUMB..

Who's the Dumb ass?

It's you, psycho.

So go fuck a spider...

so let a spider fuck you since you so deprived.
Credit to http://gossipgalore.forumarena.com

To the fucking, pathetic low life whoever.

Apparently,

U're the fucking one to go around asking people for my number.
Self proclaimed good looking (WTF?!)

You actually have the fucking face to ask me not to give your number?
And apparently i didnt.
i jus asked around, asking people whether they know this number since it's some psychotic stranger.

But apparently, no one know you.
Dunno at all.
Omg, you're seriously a pathetic bisexual.

u have the fucking face to "BEG" for my number.
Haha.
Oh pls.

Don't treat me like some fuck buddy.
and apparently, i don't even know you at all, so you calling me directly with my name, it's an insult to me.

So jus fuck off and live your fucking stupid, pathetic, low- life.

THE END and FULL STOP!

tata~

My fav video of my Crazy schoolmates

Watch it.

my crazy schoolmates entertain me alot.

=]

Satisfed with mac

I jus had my Dinner-cum-supper of mac.

Satisfied.

but my throat is getting worse.
Haha.

Oh well.

I had one of my cravings satisfied today.
Had ice cream.

nice.

But it's damn cold since it's raining.

Jon and i are like freezing, but still die die wan to eat ice cream.
=]

both of us the craving are satisfed, so now. NEXT craving pls!

Anyway,
TO the lil Irritating person, prankster or some freaking stalker:

I don't have the slightest interest in knowing u. Do honor ur words and back off.
Edited*
And i nv want to have spend a sec or half with you.
So don;t even think about meeting or asking my frens to meet all together.
I'm seriously not interested at all.

N-O-T I-N-T-E-R-E-S-T-E-D

And NO!

I totally not CURIOUS AT ALL.
Seriously.
Not curious to meet u at all.


That's all i'm gonna say.
and wont be saying anything or so on.

Bye Forever.

ps: Don't insult my love ones. I won't tolerate that.

playing prank or not

WTF?!

Different IP add?

Watever.
I couldnt be bother with some psycho or prankster.

stupid fucking psycho

OMFG.

Please.

U're so pathetic.

So run along. and play with our other psycho frens.

Bye forever!
Banned and blacklisted.


And now what,
Having one to text me in the middle of the night, telling to that she (she claimed that she's a girl) want to know me?
WTF?

I jus need to know who anyhow give my number.
to someone i dun even know and dun even recall seeing her. (she claimed that she was that at the event where i worked)

jiselle is in a very very pissy mood now.

I have crazy schoolmates.

See. What kind of schoolmates i have.

Hahaha.

Change of header pic

I was too lazy and was stoning away so i decided to stop the school work and then do some pictures editing.

and so i suddenly feel like changing my header pic.

It's been quite some time since i last change them.

so...

TaDah...

Just change them.

I hope it's nice.

I did photoshop my pictures, BUT, nv use them to resize the shape of my face or whatsoever.
just change the lighting.
I heard enough of comments from people saying those bloggers or girls or guys, who don't blog also, photoshopping their pictures.
People can jus stay out for the other's business is the best thing to do.

oh well.

That is why i talk about my pictures which are TOTALLY NOT photoshopped to change the size of my face or whatsoever. i just wanna change the lighting.

So ya.

Bye now.

Saturday, 21 Feb 2009

Was pubbing with twiny yeaterday.

Was surprised that he yesterday actually texted me to go down to boat quay yesterday.
Went there with yanru, jyren, sean and rae.

we had fun there of course.

Played pool with rae and i WON!!!
Woohoooo!!

It's been so long since i last played and so my skills had already dropped.
Bah!!

oh well.

the pictures do the talking.















Ok. Jyren is a Cam whore.
Keep asking me to take pictures.

i reached home around 4 plus 5.
And when i sleep, i had a very weird dream.

hmm.

Of course people, not any sexual dreams.
so, don't any how think.

Jus Random dream of course.

But it makes my heart beat fast.

Must forget about the dream.
FORGET!

Rubs Rubs Rubs*

Erase Erase Erase*

Poof!

Gone.

YAY!

Ok.


I think i'm being weird.
I had a submission tmr, and i haven't even start doing.
Damn.
I'm so dead!
Grrr.

But i had some idea already!
I jus need time.

Time to start!

Kinda sorted out

I give alot of thinking after i cooled own AGAIN.

and i decided to take things slowly.

Whatever you have said,
for once i trust,
But i have my terms and condition as well.

You know about it already.
so ya.

Back to me.

I'm so fucking tired.
Oh man.

work work work.
school school school.
Stress stress stress.

Grrr.

I think.

The previous 2 post is bullshit.

I guess.
I should not even text u.

Now u bring matter to complication, fucking getting involved.
like wtf.

go ahead.

i got my reason to get piss off.

you sent me flowers whereby u lie about it.
and u actually bring yourself to say tis:
"i just hope you lik them..and you know..money doesnt come by easy for me yet i sent you those.."
what are you trying to prove or tell me?
Firstly i didnt ask u to send.
Secondly, U lie about it even though u already SWEAR that it's not from you.

Wtf?

And THIS:
"you wont get to be in the same position that i am right now..you..dont have to know what im doing etc..all i can say is..i havent been eating nor sleeping well for the past few days.."

Don't fucking make it sound like i duno what you are feelling and also dun make it sound like u the one who suffered the most.
the only one who havent eat well nor slp well.
how abt me, have my 1st meal yesterday at fucking 10pm.
and for 2 days i only manage to slp 30 mins.

I don't know what u trying to show me or what so ever.

However.

I'm too tired to even say anything now.
say watever you wan.

I don't give a shit.

neither will i ever care.

cux i had enough already.

Argh.

Finally, i jus finish my work.

later have class at 9. then i only left with 30 mins to sleep.
fuck leh.

and i didnt smoke for 5 fucking hours already.



Being apart,
I actually had thought about you.
And surprisingly, you didnt text me.
that gives me time to think about alot of stuff and so on.
The conclusion became clearer.
But...

I had already give up trying to work it out.
whenever you don't listen.
Cuz, whatever people said, it wont go into your head.

For once, i hope we can jus sit down properly without any anger and without you pissing me off, and talk properly.
But i guess,
It wont happen.
Cuz i had already say the decision that i had made.

All the best to you.


Good night

sigh

Sigh.

I'm tired.

you have been on my mind.
but no matter what, i have to get it off.

The thing i always need now,
is freedom, peace, focus, time and space.

I needa focus on work.
I needa focus on school.

I need more than 24 hours per day.
I wish that i can don't need to sleep.
So that i will have enough time for everything.

I know when ever i cry,
You get worried.
But i wont do anything.
i jus need to cry out.

Thanks for being there when i'm kinda down.

Good for u to focus on your work
set that your 1st priority.
I will be happy, seeing you working hard to have a stable income.

I'm so tired, and u pushed it.

I'm cooled and not saying all these just in the fits of anger.

Say whatever you wan, whether i went back on my words and so on, cause to me, it doesn't matter.
i say the truth, and i didn't lie anything about it.

You said you dunno which words you should believe, your friends are telling you that even if you found a job, nothing will change. it will just get more.
Then you come telling me that even though your friends said that, you chose to believe me.
And now you realised that it's like what your friends had said.
What i gonna say is that, so what if you believe me, even if you don't, it doesn't matter.

You said i never think how you will feel.
Loving someone, doesn't mean u have to own her. For my logic, I do not belong to anyone.

You want the status.
What right do you think you have to ask from me. After all the troubles that i gotten from you, all the burdens, all the tears that i wasted.

You said you changed.
I admit you did. But at some point of thing, you don't get it. And i have already tell you about what i need and want. Freedom, time and space. Don't come telling me that with a status, these will be given. I don't believe cause, Even without a status, it never work out, and you still have the cheek to ask for a status from me, promising me that i will have what i want and need?
I don't think so.

I told you that MAB stills have a special place inside my heart.
You think that i treat u like a sub.
For my comments for this, You keep jumping into conclusion and you don't understand by what it means by a place in my heart.
You should know cause u are old enough to.

Say whatever you want to.
Think whatever you want to.

I'm too tired to be bothered to answer you with the same answers again and again and again.

I want these to stop.
And i figured out that, talking doesn't help.
So, i decided to stop.

And I won't give you the status, cause I don't love you anymore.

And i won't go to the extend whereby forcing myself to go and be together with someone that i don't love, and who gaves me enough problems and burdens.

I can't be together with you when your mindset is like the age of 16.

At the end of it,
You pushed it.

got the hell out

I wan u to get the fuck out of my life.

no matter what u do,

it wont change.

i wont believe.

i wont soft hearted.

so?

yes, i'm cruel at times.

into depression

Again is i feel.

I have not been feeling like these for years already.

Now,
I jus wan to drop and die.

Jiselle is going into depression soon.

I'm serious.

I have been crying for hours.
and i only sleep for 2 hours.
who can help me.

No one.
Totally.

I jus wan to be left alone now, yet i need hugs from all those i love.

What am i suppose to do.
Why am i like that.

I so fucking useless.

Fucking USELESS.

Damn it.

Kill me.

Happy Valentine's day

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY
PEOPLE.

To all my friends and whoever i know.

I can't believe it, that you're so...

Seriously,
I'm so sick and tired.

Let me tell you what i hate:
1. i hate answering useless question
2. i hate repeating my answer
3. i hate repeating question
4. i hate asking stupid question
5. i hate being forced to do the things i don't want to do or don't feel like doing.
6. i hate you keep finding chances to meet me when i have already told you that i do not want to meet.
7. i hate you keep asking to go eat with u and if i don't, you will make a big fuss out of it.
8. i hate you, keep bombing my phone with calls and smses, when i decided to be alone.
9. i hate you that you don't even give me a time to be fucking alone.
10. i hate you that when i say "do not disturb", i really dun wan to see you, chat with you on the phone, msn or what so ever shit, and of course, not replying you as well, and yet, you jus keep pestering me.
11. i hate your stupidness some time.
12. i hate to listen you you keep complain, an making me pissed off every single time.
13. i hate the burden that you make me carry.
14. i hate the fucking stress that you have given me.
15. i hate the not matured you.
16. i hate the "you think i type this is purposely jus to let HER see that we are quarrelling" word when i didn't even do that.
17. i hate your assumption
18. i hate you not reading deep into my words sometime.
19. i hate you trying to like ask so many question like i'm your gf.
20. i hate you keep asking so many question that it seems like i have to report to you as your "gf" or sth.

There's more.
But i'm too lazy.

I only can say, i do not belong to anyone.

50% of my time I do not wan to go out and u force me to.
(whether be it finding excuses or what so ever)
20% of the time u were adding more stress onto me. AS ALWAYS
10% of the time you created tiredness in me
15% of the time, you keep asking me those stupid question and keep repeating them, which i totally hate.
5% of the time, there are smiles.

Sigh.

PS: I typed this is not for HER to see. so jus keep your assumption to yourself. If you want to let your assumption run wild, Then i'm speechless. cause it only prove how much disappointed you gave me even though i trusted you.
I should not even did and i shall not from now on.

I dont wan to go with what people likes me to do.
i'll go with what i like myself to do.

so whatever.

Bad Bad Day

Waking up,
having headache.

see doctor.
spend money

so home,
eat maggie.

go out meet yuki they al for her birthday,
kena aeroplane-d.

go home,
get shits from my mum.

got phone call,
had to think with my brain again.
trying my best to help, yet tired.

Damn.

today is my fucking emo day ever.

I am...

I am crying.

For both of u.

Yea.

None of my biz.

but,
it's not the first time anyway.

After what i have done,
What i wan is for u to be happy.
both of u.
to be happy together.

How stupid i can be.

Taken on Saturday,7 feb 2009

my favourite shots.

taken by me.

Now finally is Friday.

Now i 2am in the morning, which means, it's friday!

I cant wait to go school,
finish my classes, go home rest, and then at night go work!

Oh man.

So no life.

Where the fuck is my frens?
kidding.

I'm pushing myself to my limits,
Earning as much as i can,
doing as many jobs and works as i can.

Ya,
i'm jus trying to tired myself out.
you know why?
Cux like this, then i able to sleep.

=]

Some pictures update.


My sister's ROM.

i need my rest!

ARGH

School work is killing me.

and this particular teacher is killing me more.

i regret going back to school.

I rather work my ass off.

Sigh.

What should i do now!

I miss secondary school, i miss primary school.
what should i do.
the life there was so simple, yet easy as well.

Thinking about my young school life now.
All the "stead" thingy is so funny
i wonder y is it call "stead" during that age of time.
Weird.
all the friends,
conflicts,
is like so long ago.
wearing school uniform is boring.

who even call teacher by names in secondary or primary school, like in polytechnic or let's say tertiary schools!

I jus hope, i will have a better life now.

with school, stress and so on,
I'm not happy.

not the real happiness that i want.

sigh.

I miss alot of stuff.
I miss people.

All the thinking back,
remind me of my past relationships.
and yeap, getting emo now.

from straight, to les.

I wonder.
will i remind as a les forever?
or will i still wan to get married and have kids?

I'm like 22 this year,
and my sister jus gotten married. okay may call engaged.
(she is still sharing a fucking room with me)
She is only 24 this year.
Young age to get married huh.

hmm.

how's the feeling of jgetting married, and don't worry about anything as long as have a nice and good family.
your own family.
(may not inculdes your own children)

Hmm.

Well.
Emo emo emo.

My bed is in a mess now.
with bags, and notes and drawings and so on.
sigh.

Help.

I need a stable support now.
But yet,
I don't even have one,
not one that is stable enough for me.

Maybe my standard is jus too high.

and for people like me,
god wont give support to me.

I guess.

Why?

I don't know.
Jus natural instinct.

My instinct jus tells me that,
If i really have a support,
That is the time whereby i'm like very old already.

Haha.

oh well.

It's 5 am in the morning and i still havent sleep.

I guess i need to get some sleep soon, and wakes up in the morning or afternoon to complete my work.

I miss....
whatever i used to have.

sigh.

Days

Friday 30 jan 2009

Skip school today, and not feeling well as well so yup.

Went to work at night.
modelling.



Joanne, sharon and me girls for this batch of the night

sharon and me


Our 1st stop at shin bar.
those in red are the martel girls. i know all of them! hahaha.
Esp gix! and Vanessa!!!

Saturday 31 Jan 2009

Working in the morning.
was tired.
meet mike for a lil while and went home to change.

i gotten my phone already!
Muahaha.
White LG viewty!! =]

I'm so in love with my new phone!! =]

Ok it's late le.
TODAY is my sister's ROM.
Go there and become her photographer!
hahaha.