i'm tired

I feel like, i'm 40 years old.

work and have aches everywhere.

tired easily.

lazy.

wth is happening to me.

i tout this age of mine now is suppose to be a prime age for alot of things.

damn.

我愛他- 丁噹

他的情况留在
某一节车厢
地下铁里的风
比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

I'm gonna

I'm gonna pretend that i do not have a family anymore.

whatever u guys say,
i ignore
whatever u guys scold,
i ignore
whatever u guys nag,
i ignore

i do my part to report to you whatever u need to know.
but other than that,
i will jus treat that u guys are there for the sake of being there,
nothing much but jus like room mates.

i have finally clear my mind, realising that,
there's no point arguing and so on.
cux no matter what,
i always lose.
because of who i am.

that's all.

U are nothing to me.

U are jus nothing to me.

Your sound i treat it as wind whistling.
Your nagging, i treat it as a song.
Your scolding i treat it as radio spoilt.
Your fucked up face i treat it as a ugly picture that i dun bother to take a sec to look at.

So who do u think you are?


tell u wat.
You are just nothing.

so fucked off from my life.

Go away.

when i reading the previous post, i think of you.

but whenever i had nice things in my mind and blog, it will jus lead to a sudden change in everything.

i hate it.

go away, i dun wan to see or hear anyone.

下一站， 幸福。

有些人的人生，是直達車
有些人卻是慢車，中間總要經過許多站，經歷許多人…

有人總是下錯站，坐過頭，不是錯失了窗外風景，就是錯過了身旁的人
沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終點站的人，究竟會是誰….
相愛的人，真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

I love this sentence.

It's my birthday card!

It's a huge ass birthday card, and i love it.
thank you rae for making the effort to get ard to get the people to sign it.
i really appreciate it. And thanks to the people who sign and also for the gift.

It's my best birthday ever.

I feel the love from all of you. thank you!!

more

running nose,
coughs,
bad headaches.

now with swollen eyes.
painful nose,
tons of coughs,
and worse headache.

tears are there.

but more words are exchanged. we communicate and we understand.
I'm loving you more and more every single day.

i just cant explain why.

loves~
I cry is not because you make me.
I cry is the way i unleashed out my feeling,
the way i let out all my unhappiness.

I nv cry for a particular person other than my grandma and a class mate of mine who past away when i'm in sec 1 due to car accident.

See me cry is easy.
See me cry because of a particular person is difficult.

to be or not to be.

To party or not to party?

and that's a question.

submission over. but presentation on friday morning. hmm..
thinking to party or not tmr. damn.

HB 2

Happy birthday to me yesterday,
Happy birthday to my baby today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

with tons and tons of love.

yea, i know, i jus older than her by jus one fine day. one fine day.

happy now?

=]

HB

It's my birthday!

I'm 22 already~

-.-|||

felt old instantly already.

I pretend

When you apologized, i say" it's okay. no worries."

But actually It's not really okay.

totally not okay.

but i still say "it's okay", because i dun wan to be fucking unreasonable gf.

i want to be a gf whereby, not petty, being very reasonable, and best gf.

I tried doing things that i dun usually do. 

it's difficult for me, but i still do.

everyone will tend to compare the current date or gf, with the best ex they ever had, whether be best on bed, best on handling tempers,or whatsoever. compare compare compare.

i fucking hate that.

i just can't stop images, words and voices from going into my mind. 

i need to stop!

fuck.

Memories.

msw 2009. 

nice experiences and so on.

=]

i feel afraid, scared.

(written on the 2nd nov, 2.30am)

I got this fear inside my heart.

It felt cold, lonely, and scary.

I think i felt afraid, and scared.

why am i feeling this when i left your house.

I felt the warm in your arms, i felt safe in your arms.

But once u went back to sleep, i felt, cold.

the coldness made me shiver non-stop. i can feel the cold in my heart, and in the bones.

It's not the aircon, it's not the cold floor.

how should i put it if u guys dun understand it.

i myself also dunno why am i feeling this.

i dunno.

i'm scared. and cold.

I hate this feeling. 

It makes me think too much sometime, and sometime, i dun even know what kind of things am i thinking.