THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I'm so so proud to have friends like lynn, and yanru.

I love them, totally.

*grins

They really helping me with my birthday planning. thank you girls!!!
*big big hugs!


Oh ya. thank her for helping me and encouraging me with lots of tress that is coming out from planning the celebration.
lot's or problem crop up. then she encourage me, stay by me, help me.

thank you.

erm...

I didn't know i'm such a loser.

I jus thought that i can hold this celebration to get together again.
but no one is really coming after like i sent invitation to like 30 ppl, and all i got back in return is only 9 person.

i'm not complaining i swear to god,
Jus kinda.... upset.

I guess, i'm jus emo-ing away.

How many people come, it doesn't matter.

Thanks to everyone

It's my Birthday! Soon.

Hey,

I'm holding a SMALL party at my HDB Flat.

It's a small party, food and also lots of talking.

hope you guys can come.

Please drop me a sms if you wanna come, all of u are invited.
pls pls pls sms me by wednesday which is the 29 oct.

Because i need to prepare the food!!!!

=]

it's on the 9 of nov, starting from 5pm to 9pm.

rmb to bring pressie!!

=]

Weee.

Have been receiving Flowers, my fav lilies.

It's lovely.

Have been meeting yanru they all for meals and window shopping.
Having so much to catch up on and really enjoy the company.

Jus came back from eve,

really tired, cuz i woke up at 6am for work today, and till now i didnt really slp well.

My 20 bucks fly away.

wanted to take bus, but then it's taking too long, so really cannot tahan then take the cab le.

sigh.

Money fly away.

grrr...

Grumpy mood

Wake up,
feeling grumpy.

serious.

PMS mode i guess.

Sigh.

i'm feeling really tired now i guess.
yesterday night keep having broken slp.
Jus couldnt find the correct way to slp.
Jus keep feeling uncomfortable.

now having a headache.

going to slp soon i guess.

My life, my way.

So tired now.

Just ate maggie mee and a slice of leftover pizza from Sunday for late dinner.

By right, Romeo should be going back today.

But, he is going to extend his stay in my house for 1 more week.
Due to some reason that his owner has.

Oh ya, I never show you guys how romeo look like.

Here you go!

Isn't he cute.

Went to school to submit my photography.
then suppose to meet a photographer to discuss about next week shoot.

But in the end, due to some reason, cancel.

So i met up with yanru and yf.
shopping at DG. Plaza Sing.

I pampered myself with a new shades from cotton on, and since I need a new foundation.
I went to Body Shop to get a new one.
my $$ fly away...

Must really save from now onwards.

Jon came down to find us.

I really, i couldn't be bother about her.

So what if i ignore you.

So what if i do not want to talk to you.

I don't really care.

saying you having terrible chest pain, you're sick etc.
Cannot say I don't believe.
It's more like every single time we quarrel, you will jus say how much you were suffering.
Can say that i gotten used to it and i do not wan to do anything even though i know that you are not feeling well.

Too bad, Too sad.

having fun

Yum Yum

Jus had My prata kosong and indian rojak and also teh bing.

Very full.

was with her for supper.

now i'm feeling sleepy.

later have to wake up at 12 to prepare to go school for submission.

730pm have to meet a photographer for a discussion for photoshoot.

in between i got so much time,

what should i do?

I think i need to go get a shades or sth.

maybe jus go for window shopping alone.

Busy Busy

Submission and Starting of ISP projects!!

Fucking busy.

my birthday

About 3 more weeks will be my 21st birthday.

I guess, This year will be a lonely birthday.

I guess, i think is either i spend it with friends, or jus like stay at home and rot, maybe even rushing my projects.

How great.
to have to spend my one and only 21st birthday miserably.

going out later or nt?

sigh.

Apparently...

I do not want to give you promises that i will wait or whatever.

I now i cant wait for long.
I don't the patience to.

Nowadays, even if we broke up, i also don't have a time for myself.
I need time for myself.
I want time for myself.
I just wanna do my own stuff.

Getting a job is for your own good.
Not for me.

Yes, i'm irritated by you.
I hate you pestering me.
Keep asking me to meet you etc when i really tired and want to stay at home.

I won't purposely go and wait or sth like tat.
Jus walk and count a step at a time.

Al i want to do now is to concentrate on my studies.

Alright.

Now our status is different.
I don't really can bring myself to hug you, kiss you or even hold yr hands.

I need my own space yet you r not giving me enough.
even when we r not together.
saying in a mean way,
you have no right to bother abt what i do or where i go.
to say in a nicer way,
you cant stop me from doing the things that i want to do.

hmmm.

i very sick and tired with the things are now and i wan to be left alone.
jus wan to catch up with friends and my studies.

Over due F1 pictures

Tuesday night

I regret treating you good.
Now that i had sort out my thoughts,
I will not treat you like how i used t treat you.

Went home after school.
sit at home and do my stuff.
then jon came over to find me, after knowing that she lost her job.
and i'll jus plainly ignore her.

met up with yanru and yf at eve.
she insisted on tagging along, when all i wanted is to be alone.
and she gotten herself drunk.
for jus 2 bottle of beers.

can catch the last train.
she dragged the time till there no more last train. and i have to cab back.
waste of money.
shouting and anger every where in bugis.
as if i give a shit.

I dun wan to treat you as good as i used to.
Cux u dun really deserved it now.
It's time for you to grow up now. to be mature and hardworking.

sigh.
My 21st birthday next month.
wont have any celebration.
no money to any more.

finally

Finally i have calmed down and really rest.

try not to emo anymore and move on.

Ending or not

Whether the end or not,

no one really knows.

Faded feelings.

Quarrels.

Shouting.

Scolding.

Glad that you understand now why am i doing this and you start to calm down.

if not you will just keep pushing me away.

I'll miss you too.

for now i need to force myself to concentrate on my school work.

no matter what.

enough

I had said enough.

you listen whether you want to believe it or not is your choice.

I guess, this should be the end.

apparently i had enough.


It's not about you stared at me and i'm causing all these now.

I feel so numb till i dun even feel like tearing anymore.
no ears, nothing.

I will no longer invade into your life, care about you or anything else.
your life, your choice.
how you want your life to be, is how you going to create your own life.

i dun even feel like talking anymore.

good bye and good night.

always

I always had enough.

yet i always forgive you.

I always have you making me pissed off.

yet i still forgive you.

I dunno.

I'm confused.

You mention in the sms saying that i don't love you anymore.

What can i say?

Whatever you says count.

I also dunno what or how to explain.

Sorry Girl

Sorry Mei yun.

Didn't make it for your birthday party.

So sorry.

it's killing me!

It's the worst cramp i ever gotten!

so painful.

feeling sick.


damn it.

update

more pic update.

I'm having a bit headache.
sigh.