Moving

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Monday, yea, it's blue.

But i have my classmate with me now and they are just so funny. being so hyper active and I enjoyed watching them being so crappy.

I enjoy spending time with them, like in school.

they always lift up my mood.

Yea, i'm in school now, and everyone 3 of my classmates are with me.

when i am alone, i emo.

But when i am in school, I have them to lift my mood.

Here's my classmate that always cheer me up in school or whenever i am with them. =]

Moody yet again

Work for 2 days morning shift.

tired and back aching.
the lucky thing is that it's not like super busy.

Heard alot of news from the staffs.
some personal issues.
makes me realise that sometime, not just looks can be deceiving, some character can be deceiving as well.

I am smart enough to see how the person is like by looking at him or her, and observing him or her will make me realise more about them. I can see and feel how the person is, but i nv judge. I don't know whether you believe it or not, but my sixth sense is so strong till, i can sense stuff happening sometime. Maybe you think i am jus bullshitting or sth. But it's your choice whether to believe it or not. I didn't say like it's 100% always right. I am jus human, i make mistakes sometimes as well.
I am not saying i'm a psychic or sth ok?

anyway,
I am so sick of how ugly the world is now.
Maybe that is y i like design.
So that i can design my beautiful world, though it's not like reality or sth,
but it's still beautiful.

I am not perfect.
I do not speak perfect english.
I do not like myself sometime as well.

Judge the world you may,
But to judge people personally,
I think you are just so pathetic.

I am not bimbotic,
because i personally hates bimbos.
Define bimbo?
My defination of bimbos are girls, whether pretty or not, put tons of make-ups, put on expensive clothes and carry branded bags, but they are jus so pathetic.They judged other girls, saying they are fat and etc, their poor eng, they are not as pretty as the bimbos. blah blah blah.
And oh ya,
most importantly, They are totally dumb.

alright now.
i am jus pissed off now and really hungry.
so many things happened and i dunno where I went do.
I mean the original me!
I am not myself anymore.

I need to get myself back.

Modelling

I had kinda retired from modelling.

I am taking lesser and lesser modelling jobs, almost none.

i enjoyed my freelance modelling career.
I met new people,
I met different types of people,
I had learn a lot of stuffs.

I've been in modelling for a few years now.
and now i am turning 23 this year, I decided to stop.
I can't see a future in it in making modelling into my permanent career.

I have been rejecting jobs, castings due to clashing timing with my school and work.

people always say models always rich and easy life.
WRONG.
modelling is not an easy job.

what i see myself in the future is to be sitting on a designer chair. and slowly get promoted after working hard.

that is what i see.

being a designer is my life.
not modelling.

Modelling is fun, but not permanent.

tata~

Design

Recently i was doing my school work and i went into this website.
there's a video on a speaker, saying:

"Writing is designing with words."

My life as an artist started off when i was a kid.
I love to draw, and draw and draw.

Then, my life as a designer started when i as 17.
My 1st course of design is "Product Industrial Design"
Which i find, don't really suit me.

so after 2 years, i quit.

I went to work in a small company as an concept artist aka graphic designer, for 1 year plus.

Then i registered and went for the entrance text for NAFA.
And i got in.

I have been here for 2 years already, and i am still loving designing.
When i was in TP, my course made me hate design.
Nafa makes me love design, or maybe is the course that i am doing.
Graphic design is jus my cup of tea.

Designing plays such a big part of my life.
I doubt i can be happy if i cant design anymore.

Though it's like really stressful, and alot of things to think about,
but i am enjoying it.

I love Design.

Same old day.

Went to watch this is 3D.
The story was a bit confusing. But i like to observe the colour being used, the effects and so on.
it's really interesting.

My fav character in this movie is this fellow over here.

The dance moves that he has, the way he talks and also the way he act out his character.
i don't know.
Just find him really nice and very interesting.

I got this from my gf.
yes, it's a monthsary present. but was quite pissed with her because she anyhow spend money.

But still.
thank you.



I think i wanna get a license soon. Bike 1st i guess.
I am jus so sick of taking night rider home because the journey always take very long and my butt hurts from all the sitting.
and also,
I jus suddenly fall in love with bikes.

So, when i save enough money,
i'll go take up the license.

shall go and surf the net.
Cya around.

What else?

Actually, i do not know what to blog anymore.

my mind is blank.

till when i know what to blog.
good night.

Being judged.

Shit people who dunno me well and judged me.

To being with, one should not judge anyone.

So, fuck to people that judged other people.

Human who judged, make them become the low-class level of human side.

They make people realise how pathetic they are, how ugly they are.

Seriously,

U make my relationship sucks now.

u make it so unstable.

and now, u made me so tired of giving in anymore.

I am no longer going to change.

I am no longer to try.

I do not give a shit anymore.

I do not care whether who is getting the blames in the end,

because, i realised that u are just nothing to me. not even a speck of dust.

so FUCK OFF.

Because of what is happening,

I went to poison myself with more cig, more alcohol.

But apparently, set aside the poisoning, I am glad that, i finally realised who is wearing the mask and who is not.

bye now.

7th week

It has been 7 weeks since school start. and last 3 weeks are like shit.
Submissions, consultation, and wasting tons of money on the printing and reprinting.

I used all my angbaos money on the printing and buying those material.

At first i thought i could have some spare cash to do some shopping for myself.
now i seriously doubt so.

Pimples keep popping out.
due to monthly "aunt's visit", tons of stress, and late night sleeps which happens every single night. damn.
my back is aching due to the stupid chair that is in one of my fav colour, but the design really sucks. it's like those kopitiam chair.
Guess i need to go IKEA for study chair soon. If not, i think my back wont take it anymore.
*provided i have the time to.

Work, study, work, study, work, study
That's my life.
boohoo.

Need to go back to do my packaging design soon.
which is due on wednesday.
And need to do a illustration for wednesday class as well.

alright.
will blog soon.

Tears

The picture is being photoshop-ed for the tears part.

but now, deep down my heart, and since yesterday. i have been crying.
jus keep on crying.

cry till i cant think anymore.

Sins

Everyone have their sins.
They need to pay back their sins.

What's my sins?
Living throughout my life, i did bad stuffs. i did good stuffs.
That's life, isn't it?

What goes around comes around.
Karma.

I have been doing some reading.
and I just keep thinking my my head about sins, karmas, and paying back kinda stuff.
after reading just make me keep thinking about my 23 years of life.

time to slp.
good night.

Back memories

MSW FINAL Gown

1st time ever wear such a stunning gown.

Time of the month

LA time.

feel like shit now.

gf went supperclub.
i'm at home chionging homework.

just finish not long ago.

heading to bed soon. need to be up at 7.

damn all the stupid assignments.

i am so in a fucked up mood now.

and i can feel that my cramp is coming.

Now i know

Now i know,
how much do i love u.

Without you with me for like gg to 5 days, i miss u like crazy.
how i miss u mean how i love u also.
so if i miss u like crazy, that also means i love u like crazy.

Less than 24 hour u will be back in sg. but i will only be able to see u on wed. =[

In love like crazy.

='[

I miss u like crazy.

sry peeps, i am emo-ing.

Boohoo hoo~

I miss you like crazy.

I still got 4 more days then can see you. =[

CNY eve

It's a night for reunion dinner.

I just finished mine, together with my aunties, mummy and brother.
hmmm.

supposed to go river angbao later.
but i still thinking to go anot.
heard alot of problems between the relative side, internal conflict.
guess than my angbao will be much lesser already.

every year my ang baos already veru little already, tis time it's going to go much lesser.

sigh.

dinner was simple and nice.
and the homemake cheese cake was fantastic. i am addicted to it.

i miss my gf so much.
i have not heard from her for more than 24 hours, whether be it by text or call.
i am still waiting.

interesting stuf to share

Who say snail is slow?

"Fruitily" delicious pancakes

In a rush

Have been staying back in school till 10 plus,
then rush home, have "dinner" and shower.
then on my lappie and start thinking and doing my assignment till about 4am in the morning,
sleep, then wake up the next day in the morning, then go to school again.

the whole cycle will jus go round and round again and again.

I feel super sleepy, super tired, and my back is like fucking aching away.

Feel super stress too.

boohoo~

That's all about me and my school.

My life now, excluding school activities, is still the same. somehow have not been going out after school. jus school and home, school and home.

CNY is coming.
I have gotten my clothes, my shoes. and accessories.
nothing much to get already i guess.

I'm satisfied with what i gotten for cny,
simple and "so me" type of clothes. love it.

ok. shall stop now. back to school work~

tata~

It's the 1st time, and it' unforgetable

Went to PLAY yesterday.

was having a good time, until when the crowd goes wild.
Having guys in a lesbian party is totally a wrong thing. gay guys are fine, but most of them look straight.
Gay guys danced and the crowd is cheering. he is super hot. Everyone is high and cheered on the gay guy. And then, a straight indian guy appeared in the center of the crowd. kinda like challenging the gay guy. An then things happen, the gay guy start to take of his shirt and belt. butch unbutton his shorts, but it's not taken off.
he went over and show bare butt to the indian guy.
and in the end, the indian guy took off his pants, including his boxer.

A major turn off.
totally gross. I felt sth wrong when the crowd goes wild, and things happened. Gross level to the max! I am racist. i don't really care.
More and more guys appear in lesbian party which is like making it so weird.

anyway that is event 1.

here comes event number 2.

1st time in my life, i got into a fight, or maybe almost got into a fight.
with a gay guy somemore.

Actually i wan a girl to apologise since she push me damn hard, but she is stubborn. and being a bitch, she was barking away.
nv in my life, i saw such a bitch and bimbo, whereby they may appear they are not scared, but guess what?! she is a coward. she kinda like asking her fren to help her settle, and she dun even dare to look and scold us while looking at us? she keep mumbling her words towards her frens but dot directly at us?
It's really stupid.
Her frens all say she is drunk. so? If u cant drink well, then dun fucking drink more than what u can drink.
then i think the gay guy kinda drunk (different gay guy on the dance floor), and he came over and jus shouted and trying to hit me and everyone else with his handbag. then i jus went over and ask him like what is problem? it doesnt involved him at all. i rmb he keep saying "want to fight? come! I'm a man!" one thing for sure, i do not care whether u're a man or not when it comes to having my gf being pushed and W being pushed as well!
After that he grab hold of my hand, pulling me down or sth, i struggled and then he let go. because my gf went to punch him near his nose or mouth.
then both of them struggle!
I try to pull my gf away from him. every is pulling me, my gf and W away from the crazy guy.
I think the gay guy kinda pushed W, and send her to hit the chair or sth. then the next thine i know, i hear W throw a punch at his temple, which i think make him bleed because he got a eyebrow piercing.
Police came, and straight away, the gay guy apologised. it's like he suddenly sober already.

then or that BITCH, she was lucky. and i heard is them who called the police.
God bless them when we get to see them again.
cux apparently my gf dun wan to let this matter rest.
Yes, and that's my gf.

So many drama within like 2 hours.
we are not hiding anything so we are not worry about anything.

Anyone touches my frens and my gf,
will need people to bless them.

goodnight.

5th

Happy 5th month.

but u are out clubbing.
intend to kiss u and whisper "happy 5th month" to you.

but once your fren called, and my plan ruined.
so i have to travel back alone, waiting for bus in town alone after u board your fren's cab, at 1130pm.

I jus feel, it's not a very happy monthsary today.

i love you very very much.

Bad headache

I having a bad bad headache.

after work, i went out to meet my gf and charlie, they went for pool session.
but i dunno what's wrong with me, or the atmosphere there.
once i reach at k pool, my head is like bursting.
it's getting more and more painful and i can even feel my heart beat in my head.
it feels like shit seriously!

i cant even enjoy my night.
damn.

but overall it feels good to jus meet my gf after 2-3 days of not meeting her due to my busy schedule, and also some frens. =]

dor dor's bday celebration today at night! woo~

Jus being a pirate

I feel like i am a pirate today.

woohoo~

Lu la la

Can't really think of a title for this post. so jus any how lah~

I got my The Sim 3 game.
Many thanks to Whit and also my baby.

I enjoying the game very much. =]

Hmm.

Supposedly, my lesson is at 3pm later.
So "by right", i jus need to wake up at 1pm later.
BUT.
my class rep jus text up to go online for school stuff tmr. for some ilearning stuff.
at 11am!

ARGH.
damn angry.

it's stupid.
=[

Things happened.
Talks are involved.
It's still remain the same.
But we are working out alot of things with each other.
and we will work hard.

I love u so much that u can't imgaine.

Goodnight peeps.
i'm waiting for my baby to call.

=D

boo~

My eyes,
super itchy.

my nose,
blocked.
keep sneezing.

my body.
tired.

boohoo~


i think i am cancelling tmr lesson.
so sleepy. need more rest.
working hard on sat and sunday morning~

i need extra cash~

Shut up bitch.

Shut up bitch.
it's a shame to know u are one.

random

I have to work hard,
and really study hard!

Jia you jia you jia you!
It's an old picture.
jus post it up for memories. tpss.

Wrong

I can't sleep well for days.

I can't think for days.

I can't feel any emotion for days.

I'm like a living corpse.
jus doing what i am supposed to do for daily life.

the front that i put up in school,
no one will ever see through that mask of mine in school.

no one.

Deal with it.

Wassup with Singaporean trying to act "ang moh"?
Having the accent will not make u one.

I saw and heard tons of people trying too hard.
thus making them a fool.

If you are a chinese, malay or indian, and also a Singaporean,
Be proud of it.

Y choose to be someone else?

Want to be one?
then migrate.
Do not disgrace yourself to the tourist.

bye now~

To who may it concern.

To whoever,

I nv intend to set the image of myself as someone who excel in eng in my blog.
so what if i do not speak or write good eng here?
It doesn't matter.
Because it's my own blog and you guys are the ones who have the choice to read it or not.

If you guys are not happy with how i blog, don't read it.
If you guys think that i should not blog because of my ENG, one thing to say to u: "get a life of your own, what right do u have to stop me from blogging?"
If you guys think i am some stupid bitch, so be it. Whatever goes ard comes ard.
If you guys think that u blog way much better than i do, go ahead, it's none of my biz.

I did not mention in my blog before that my eng is "EXCELLENT"
I did not mention that i will blog in a very FLUENT ENG.

Not happy with how i talk or write?
deal with it.

bye now.

mixed feeling

School Starts TODAY!

what kind of feelings should i have to show?

and, i miss the food in asian house. =[

Hi people

Somehow i feel like locking my blog soon. maybe for a moment.
maybe within the up coming week, i'll lock it.

when i see my sister, jerine locked her blog,
i used to think why i locked my blog last time.
For me,
sometime i do need the extra privacy.


anway people,
if u still want to read my blog, give me a tag on my tag board or comment on my post.
leave yr email as well.
so that i will do the setting.

Many thanks!!

PLAY-ed

I had fun last night at PLAY.

The company,
The laughters and so on.
A small drama i got to settle, but then i guessed, i did talk sense into her.

Some of the pics..



Have been feeling damn frustrated lately. esp....
Sigh.

I need to control it.
I need to control it.
I need to control it.

If not, things will turn out very very very bad.
Sigh.

I need to talk to ppl.
But i can't.
Because 1stly, they wont understand.
2ndly, I dunno how to say out in word. images flashing through my mind about what i amd worried, stressed or frustrated about, but i jus dunno how to put into words.

I am starting school next week,
and i hope that i will have the school study to distract me.
make me less frustrating,
distract me away from what is "frustrating" me or even my mind.

sigh.

Life

It just come and goes.

sames goes to everything else.

it's jus the matter of time.

Start to..

It's getting into me.
The pressure, the stress.

which make my mood go haywire.

I dunno how long more i can stand on.

I'm gg to collapse soon.

HNY 2010

Sorry guys, i know i'm late by one day in wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR.

It's year 2010.
and 10 is one of my fav number.

10 is the day of my birth, and the position number 10 of ABC, which is J, and it related to my name, Jiselle.

It's a new year.
I do not want to like type out my new year resolution out.
I always keep my new year resolution to myself.
=]

anyway, it's a new year, and i will wan to jus work hard and play hard.
And also earn more money.

and this year, i'm already like 23 already. fuck man.
now i know y women are afraid of being ask the age.

=[