For who i am

My mum, hates me for who i am.

My birth mother.

yea, She hates me for who i am.
for me being crooked.
for me talking on the phone often.

she scolded me, together with her being on the phone with me.
threaten her, threaten me.
etc etc.

Mum, i do love u.
but i'm so sorry to say,
and i hate u at the same time.

Leave me alone, and u get peace,
Get control of me and u will get hell.

Shut the f up, even though u are my mum

So what?

please kindly accept that your lovely daughter is a lesbian.

Yes, once bitten twice shy. but being gay will always be gay.
Take it or leave it, your daughter is like that. u cant change tis fucking fact!!

Don't want a lesbian daughter?
then throw me away.
Dun recognise me as your daughter.

I dun give a shit.

Yes u gave birth to me.
yes, i do love u.

but hello?
It's MY life!!
MINE!

got this clear!

so many things happen today.
I jus feel like mia-ing

=]

The way u look at me and smile.
Looks sweet.

Fever

In the end, i had fever.

but now the temperature went down so still alright.

It's raining heavily at east side.

and i'm feeling hungry now.

Boo hoo.

I need to rest. tonight movie.
=]

Sniff sniff

Gao wei max!!

I having a cold, running nose, sore throat, and also coughs.

how can my life be better?!!

thanks for the medicine that u brought all the way down. =]

Drink drink and drink.

I'm not drunk.

jus very tipsy.

hurray to alcohol!!!

F

I'm F sleepy now.

I'm a F person, who wants no commitment, nothing.
I enjoy how i am now. and i have no F intention to mislead people.

good F night.

stuff

Apparently, today i'm in a pissy mood.

being aeroplane-d
waited for people for an hour.

these 2 things is in the so called "the thing i hate to kena"

within that hour, i called, i text, no replies at all. and finally when i got one, none is coming, and that make me look like a fool in the mall, waiting, and so on.

so in the end, i travel down to west side to look for frens.
and then supper.

Lesson learn-
i'm not gg to meet frens when they are not confirm with anything. as is 100% confirm!

argh so pissed off

For what?

I didn't know that for someone i didn't talk to for a very long time,
Know about my new piercing.
Only close frens knows about it and school mates.

but apparently, i didn't mention in my blog and so on and what's make it so weird is that, someone whom i nv contact anymore knows about it.

so when i know it, i was hmm. totally no comment.

i know u still read my blog so on and so for, and i didnt say anything or what so ever. it's your choice, internet belong to everyone.

i jus dun like the fact that since i'm out o your life, u are still getting regular update by people.
nothing against it.

jus a random thought.

no names mentioned.

National day.

So whassup with my National day?
Yess i know it's like 2-3 days back.
been lazy to update blog.

clubbing, alcohol, drunk, WATERFALL.
haha.

But i was having fun that night.

cux our group was quite big that night.

Peektures!










Love the Twoqueensparty pledge.
It's awsome.

ok i know my fringe look damn weird. i know.
hate my fringe to the max.


There are things that i can't do.
but i will decide on the things that i want to do.
and everyone knows what is the things i have decided.
cux i have been repeating them.

I'm still moody, but, i guess, that's life.

sleepless night?

I went offline.

trying to stone till i fall aslp.
but it fails.

my eyes jus dun wan to close.
my mind jus dun wan to stop running.
my body jus keep turning and turning.

i need to wake up at 7 later for school.
what should i do.

a whole day class.

school sucks.
work sucks.
everything sucks.

i pray for things to be better.

for now, leave me alone.
i'm happier alone somehow.

No oxygen

I feel as if, there's no oxygen in the air.

It's a secret.

I do not want anything.

Leave me alone.

Random.

Rarr

Latest addicton

These are a few latest addictions for me.
have been blasting full blast at home since yesterday.

i always love Jrock, but i dun show it.
people love jrock and show it by wearing the same kind of clothes (no offence, i'm jus saying about myself).

I jus love the music.
and i wear the clothes that express my personality. =]

My jrock love is always inside my lovely Ipod. =]

Off day!

Yuhoo!

No school.
No work.

OFF DAY!!

at night will be twinny's bday celebration!


Anyway,
as you all can see from the picture.
Yes i trim my hair.
with short fringe which is bang LOOK ALIKE!
look alike only.

repeat again.
It's not bang!

and no, i dun look cute in it.
damn.
hate the auntie that cut so short for me.
now i look like some retard.

boohoo.

i need my fringe to grow longer and faster!
=]

I think menses is coming.
i feel the pain everywhere.
and beware people,
you all gotta be careful around me.
esp during these period of time.
every month.

rarr~

Msw babes!
meet up soon!

Bang bang bang

Headache is kinda killing me.

have been using ciggies as my painkillers.
mass smoking away.

anyway, i have been thinking back alot of stuff and so on.

first up, smoking.

so what if a girl smoke?
what differences does it make between a girl who smokes and a guy who smokes?
Humans always say "when you see a girl who is pretty and smokes, it destroys everything."

All bullshit.

So does it mean that a good looking guy who smoke also will destroy everything?


Secondly, Human, males, females.

Humans always put females in a more disadvantage than males.
They always think that males are more capable in anything than females.
It's a different century my dears.

I strongly believe that woman will achieve much better than man in the near future. (i didn't say this to criticize males)
I just find that world sometime is being really unfair.


Thirdly, Pageant.

2 words.

Pure Darkness.

my 4th is a secret.

i think i'll stop here.
my headache is really killing me.

I'm heading to bed.

tata~

love, jiselle.

=]

Another desire done.

Next up!

Touching up of my tattoo!

but when i have the money to!

Have a smoke, have a break.

Yea,
Have a smoke,
Have a break.

Finally,
The MSW is over.
Congras to those who win those titles,
and also to those who didnt win anything, which includes me,
you guys are still as beautiful as u are from the deep inside my heart.

I can finally rest well,
take a break,
Sleep more,
no need to rush to rehearsal like some crazy girl,
no need to carry heels to school because i have to rush to rehearsal after school.

Whee~

There are some major and minor disappointment, but I don't think it will be good to say it out.
Fate decided it, so be it.

It doesn't matter.

I just hope, it will be better in the future.
=]

I'm hungry~~