mmm.

Didn't go for the una thingy.

nvm.

waited for bb to finish work.
and then go her house.

dinner at bedok 85.
together with her mum, sis, niece and nephew, andy (live together). their treat. but seriously, i'm gg to have very bad sore throat.
sigh.

jus reach home not long ago.
Sleepy a bit.

Gonna slp soon i guess.

I need more rest.

Tired

PMS is late. making me very irritated.

Later gg work in 5 mins time.

hmm...

Tmr gg to loof for the Red bull Una thingy.
I wonder will it be fun?
bb is gg with me. but then she will be bored.

How lah!

Sigh.

Rarr

Sleepy lah.

sigh.

I jus hope that humans can actually don't need to sleep and do whatever they wan for 24 hours.

Sleeping is a waste of time.

OH YA!

BB today did the soft screaming of "being cuffed" onto the bed thingy.

IT's damn funny.

But it's a really fun, cute and entertaining side of her.

Hmmm.

Anyway,
our 3rd month jus passed.
People say, honeymoon period only last 3 months after that will be more serious or can say more tone down.
Not as sweet as usual.

But, me and bb still like in honeymoon period.
playing, entertaining each other.
hahaha.

Imissbb.

RARR~

Another day past

Today is not consider as a good day actually to start with, but it ended well somehow.

I mean ever since last night, bb and i have been like quarrelling.

I feel so frustrated, irritated, i almost cannot stand it.
the feeling is like being forced to and i hate the feeling.
It's so irritating. so frustrating.
i feel like banging the wall or jus jump and die.
So fucking hate it.

But somehow,
Bb appeared infront of me and things turned out good.
I mean in the phone, we can quarrel like hell.
but when she appear in front of me, i jus like calm down somehow.
manage to see her.
It's a good thing.
but she herself is not feeling well.
and i dun like the fact that she always put me in the first place in everything.
it will jus tired herself out.
and make herself more sick only.

I do not know what's wrong seriously about me, on me.
It's like i'm like a time bomb, or landmine, jus one slightly touch and u will get bombed by me.
Sigh.
Bb experienced it le.
Guilty though but really i jus can'r really control myself.
Hate myself for being like tat.
Maybe its pms mode, maybe jus not enough sleep, not enough rest.
don't know.

From young, i tend to keep alot of things to myself.
Ask me to say it out somehow, it;s a bit difficult.
it's a habit.
But ya, i know, it can be changed.
BUT
how long do i need to take to change it.
Days, weeks, months, years?
I don't know.
But at least now, i will try to tell things to bb.
Cux i know she will be there for me.

sigh.

Anyway.
Today bb is damn funny,
keep imagining that she is a cat, being put inside a toaster and being toasted to death.
"the meow-ing" sound that she makes is like saying "help me, I'm feeling so toasted, and seriously, i'm dying! HELP!!!"

MEOW MEOW MEOW MEow Meow meow meow meow meow

HAHA.

still got one more thing that she did is making her damn fucking cute.

BUT.

I forget.

Bb forget as well.

oh well.

At least it's a evening night well spend.



Ilovebb.

This morning was like serious overslept at bb house and woke up at 7 plus instead.

Damn.

I intend to go back at 3plus 4am one.
but i was too tired and sleepy.
So i slept till my mum called and go back to sleep again.

today supposedly not working.
but someone ask me to take over his shift so ya.
luckily today is not busy.

sigh.
I'm still feeling a bit sleepy now.
Seriously have been deprived of sleep lately.

Have been really stupid and really bad lately.
Can see and observe that i had change temporarily.
being unreasonable, being easy get angry, easy dulan and easy irritated,
sigh.
Bb is kelian de lo.
bear so many of these things from me.
sigh.
sorrybb.

BB's clown-ing around.

Guess what.

BB is imagining that she being cuffed onto the bed.
and "soft-screaming" : "oh no, blah blah.".

Damn cute lah.

hahahaha.

My bb is so cute and entertaining!

hello baby!
nehehe.
this is the something that i'm gonna do.

surprise not?
a bit bit retarded i know.
but but but.

still.
i hope you lik it larh huh!
=D

ilovemygreatestmostspecialandpreciousbb!

with tons of love,
jon

Don't know whta's going on

Maybe it's jus me lah.

Have been in the mode of "easy to get angry".

Small little things you say.
I will get easily pissed off.
Pms mode coming.
Stress with school.
Stress with family.
Stress with you.

I just want to relax and just rest.
But, I have to like prepare to go find you, scared you angry if i don't.
I have to prepare for school presentation which is later, but till now i cant even find a fucking powerpoint application.
I have to like go and wait for you to finish work.

It's like..

I'm jus tired lo.
Tired of worrying.
Tired of stress-ing.
Tired of alot and alot of stuff.

Tears wont stop flowing.
And i'm having financial problems as well.
How am i gg to support myself.
No longer will i get allowance.

now, even stress about my finance.
Like WTF.

Had enough.
I'm confused.
I do not know what to do next.

Leave me all alone.

At least. jus for now.

Jus want to sleep

Shall edit my layout soon.

now tired.

Change of life

Change of Blog.
Change of life.

Start all over again.

Hugs.