改变世界，不如改变自己

You can't change the world.

But you can always change yourself.

The changes may maintain for days, weeks, months, years, decades,

But eventually, old habit will jus come back.

The old self will once again return.

Then again we will want to change again.

The cycle just go round and round, non stop.

I have tried to make changes.

I am still trying,

Jus that you didn't see.

Trying is not jus a one time things, it wont straight away succeed overnight.

It's a continuous thing till you succeed.

and that is why it is call trying.

I am,

Jus that you didn't see.

Good night.

Vampires

Since young i always like supernatural stuffs, esp, Vampires.
i find them interesting.

I always like to watch Vampire movies, TV series etc.
Example, movies - Twilight, Underworld and for TV series, Vampires Dairies, True Blood etc.
Recently i have been watching Vampires Dairies and true blood. and i love it.
Love story between Vampires and Humans, it's so extraordinary.

Yea, i know it's jus shows, they are fake blah blah blah.
I nv say they are real. i jus like them. =]

anyway, i'm like googling online now about vampires.
jus to satisfy my curiosity.

there are so many version of vampires.

Creating vampires

The causes of vampiric generation were many and varied in original folklore. In Slavic and Chinese traditions, any corpse which was jumped over by an animal, particularly a dog or a cat, was feared to become one of the undead.A body with a wound which had not been treated with boiling water was also at risk. In Russian folklore, vampires were said to have once been witches or people who had rebelled against the Church while they were alive.

supposed to post everything up.

but it's jus too many from Wikipedia.

here's the link.

Vampires from Wiki

like it or not.

i'm jus a totl fan of vampires. =]

SIMS 3

I want to play Sims 3!!!

fuck. why can't i?

damn it.

really feel damn pek chek after trying for hours and hours.

fuck fuck fuck.

random pic.

Herstory party at Zouk. DEC 2009

Hatred

This few days i have not been myself.

No appetite.
Moody.
Grumpy.

Maybe it's pms, maybe it not.
Maybe it's some other thing that is affecting it.

Other that me not being myself,

I found myself starting to hate.
Hate many many things.

I'm getting tired.

I need some distraction.

W-E-I-R-D

Spell it.

It's Weird.

So who is?

I AM!

so stay away from me.
Cux i'm a weirdo!

In desperate end.

I nv feel so broke be4.

seriously.

sigh.

Love and Hatred, both are the same thing.

I hate you all as much as i love u all.

When I talk back, i'm being said to be disrespectful,
When i shut up, The cursing and swearing is on going, and yet, i feel like a fucking loser.

so what should i do.

I just cant wait to move out.

It will be my last.

"IT" will be my last one already.

no more.

i'm satisfied and happy with it.

Monthsary again

It's our 3rd month.

=]

i'm tired

I feel like, i'm 40 years old.

work and have aches everywhere.

tired easily.

lazy.

wth is happening to me.

i tout this age of mine now is suppose to be a prime age for alot of things.

damn.

我愛他- 丁噹

他的情况留在
某一节车厢
地下铁里的风
比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

I'm gonna

I'm gonna pretend that i do not have a family anymore.

whatever u guys say,
i ignore
whatever u guys scold,
i ignore
whatever u guys nag,
i ignore

i do my part to report to you whatever u need to know.
but other than that,
i will jus treat that u guys are there for the sake of being there,
nothing much but jus like room mates.

i have finally clear my mind, realising that,
there's no point arguing and so on.
cux no matter what,
i always lose.
because of who i am.

that's all.

U are nothing to me.

U are jus nothing to me.

Your sound i treat it as wind whistling.
Your nagging, i treat it as a song.
Your scolding i treat it as radio spoilt.
Your fucked up face i treat it as a ugly picture that i dun bother to take a sec to look at.

So who do u think you are?


tell u wat.
You are just nothing.

so fucked off from my life.

Go away.

when i reading the previous post, i think of you.

but whenever i had nice things in my mind and blog, it will jus lead to a sudden change in everything.

i hate it.

go away, i dun wan to see or hear anyone.

下一站， 幸福。

有些人的人生，是直達車
有些人卻是慢車，中間總要經過許多站，經歷許多人…

有人總是下錯站，坐過頭，不是錯失了窗外風景，就是錯過了身旁的人
沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終點站的人，究竟會是誰….
相愛的人，真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

I love this sentence.

It's my birthday card!

It's a huge ass birthday card, and i love it.
thank you rae for making the effort to get ard to get the people to sign it.
i really appreciate it. And thanks to the people who sign and also for the gift.

It's my best birthday ever.

I feel the love from all of you. thank you!!

more

running nose,
coughs,
bad headaches.

now with swollen eyes.
painful nose,
tons of coughs,
and worse headache.

tears are there.

but more words are exchanged. we communicate and we understand.
I'm loving you more and more every single day.

i just cant explain why.

loves~
I cry is not because you make me.
I cry is the way i unleashed out my feeling,
the way i let out all my unhappiness.

I nv cry for a particular person other than my grandma and a class mate of mine who past away when i'm in sec 1 due to car accident.

See me cry is easy.
See me cry because of a particular person is difficult.

to be or not to be.

To party or not to party?

and that's a question.

submission over. but presentation on friday morning. hmm..
thinking to party or not tmr. damn.

HB 2

Happy birthday to me yesterday,
Happy birthday to my baby today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

with tons and tons of love.

yea, i know, i jus older than her by jus one fine day. one fine day.

happy now?

=]

HB

It's my birthday!

I'm 22 already~

-.-|||

felt old instantly already.

I pretend

When you apologized, i say" it's okay. no worries."

But actually It's not really okay.

totally not okay.

but i still say "it's okay", because i dun wan to be fucking unreasonable gf.

i want to be a gf whereby, not petty, being very reasonable, and best gf.

I tried doing things that i dun usually do. 

it's difficult for me, but i still do.

everyone will tend to compare the current date or gf, with the best ex they ever had, whether be best on bed, best on handling tempers,or whatsoever. compare compare compare.

i fucking hate that.

i just can't stop images, words and voices from going into my mind. 

i need to stop!

fuck.

Memories.

msw 2009. 

nice experiences and so on.

=]

i feel afraid, scared.

(written on the 2nd nov, 2.30am)

I got this fear inside my heart.

It felt cold, lonely, and scary.

I think i felt afraid, and scared.

why am i feeling this when i left your house.

I felt the warm in your arms, i felt safe in your arms.

But once u went back to sleep, i felt, cold.

the coldness made me shiver non-stop. i can feel the cold in my heart, and in the bones.

It's not the aircon, it's not the cold floor.

how should i put it if u guys dun understand it.

i myself also dunno why am i feeling this.

i dunno.

i'm scared. and cold.

I hate this feeling. 

It makes me think too much sometime, and sometime, i dun even know what kind of things am i thinking.

Stupid Fire Drill in school

I'm early in school now and i really very lazy to start what i need to start. my ISP. 

just now i came and settle everything down outside the library, and then i saw my print making teacher and he told me got fire drill. 

totally sucks. cuz i totally hate to participate in fire drill. damn it.

so i pack everything back to my bag, and then i just take my time to the 7-eleven. and get a choco milk. haha.

and had a smoke break.

=]

anyway, congras to jerine, my beloved sister, had her 1st month with her girlfriend. =]

will get to see you at tmr halloween party.

speaking of that, i still stuck with what to dress up with. 

thinking jus simple one with vampire teeth or sth. or another option is i still can use my Miss singapore sash, to go there as the finalist! good idea right? i surf the net and got the idea from there. =]

anyway i think i need to start on my school work liao. sian.

will blog again~ 

Movie night that almost make me lose my last bus

Yeap. i watched this together with my girlfriend.

it's an interesting show. kinda like a comedy as well.

My rating: 3.9 out of 5

the 0.1 is for taking too long and i almost miss the last bus home.
if i missed it, i will have to take cab, and i do not have money for can actually. damn.

hate being poor.

Monday Morning Train Crowd.

Actually i wanted to like blog in the train, but i dun have any idea how since i do not have Internet access and i do not know how to blog through the phone or sth. so yeap. i know i'm sua ku.

anyway about this morning crowd in the stupid train.

i usually take to pasir ris then take to bugis for school. but then, it happens that today is a fuck up day. 

Most of the days, i'm too stone to go and notice about how the crowd will be like, but apparently today, i kinda not really stoning, so i notice the crowd.

1. Singaporeans are really fucking kiasu. (i know everyone know that). And yes, i'm a singapore as well. but i'm not as kaisu as them! office people are pains in the asses. following the rules, you are supposed to be queuing behind the yellow line, wait for people to come out, but apparently, some assholes are not doing it. they are taking the risk to get knock down by the train, or even get pulled along with the train. Why are they doing this? Just because they want to like get a seat in the stupid train. i mean i do want a seat as well, but then i won't want to die so young.

2. They don't let people come out 1st, heck care about the queue, as long as they got a seat. there is this office guy, was queueing way behind me, and when the train arrived, i turned and saw him standing beside me! like wtf right? then when some people just want to get out of the train, he just want to get in asap, and me, i'm just being the bad person and block his way. As if i care about him.

In the train..

3. I know my leg is very long, but i can't help it. i already try my best not to block people's way, and i still have people stepping on my foot, without apologising at all. they just look at me as if me having long legs is so fucking wrong.

4. I do not like people to touch me, esp strangers, esp guys, man, or even old man. I just feel uncomfortable. But why do they like to touch me? maybe not purposely, but still, i feel so uncomfortable. I just want them to leave me alone. i already squeezed to a corner and it's not helping.

Getting out of the train.

5. well. it's glad to know that some people are kind enough to make way for the people to get out of the train.

6. I know i'm tall, but then you people do not have to stare at me like some freak jus because i'm standing up from my seats and preparing to leave. It's getting on my nerves.

Totally, Kaisu (super) Singaporeans are a shame to our own country.

That's all.

Got to get back to school work. 

why?

Why can't love be as easy as ABC?

i'm right.
love is complicated.

pictures

as promised.

ZBL and fuckup gastric

ZBL=Zo Bo Lan. (hokkien-do nothing)

now sitting outside my classroom, doing nth, apparently blogging. 

still cant go into my classroom yet, so yeap.

i took a cab to school jus now due to my gastric.

it's still painful though.

super uncomfortable.

fuck.

now i jus waiting for the other class to end their lesson then i can go in and sit down on a chair and do my school work. 

oh shit. 

it's painful.

bye now.

...

Sentosa today with baby.

still alright. pictures will be uploaded soon, nw i super lazy.

and moody.

so not much words, bye.

Up next

Up Next, ISP.

Normal Subjects assessments is over. It ended yesterday. ISP starts on the Tues. and from what i heard from my friends, there are tons of things to do. Damn. I find myself have not been working hard enough for my school. i need to work harder. like seriously. but how to?

Will i be able to work hard for my upcoming ISP?

I need to work hard.

sigh.

I need to go to work later.
so sian, but today is public holiday. so the pay will be slightly more.
I cant wake for end of the month of my pay. I have an aim to do sth already.
=]

*this pic we took be4 we even start dating.

I miss baby. badly.

We had a nice talk yesterday, and i feel that she can be the one that i can be open up to. For the past 22 years, i always keep things inside my hearts, not intentionally, it's jus naturally that i find things have no point to tell ppl, so naturally, i'll jus dun say out.
anyway for the past 22 years, it's really difficult for me to open my mouth and tell things to ppl, even own partner. i will say, but not everything.
My ex partner, dun even bother to ask me to open up to them, only her, only this current one, have been keep asking me to be open up to her. sometime, to say the truth, i get very irritated when she keep asking me to open up to her, i jus think that she dun understand how much i have been trying to open up to her, and it's really difficult for me to do it. it's making me very tired.
yesterday, i jus decided to tell her that it's really tiring to force me to say things out and so on, and i cried.
I nv cry in front of baby before. I cried.
and I feel that she understand how i feel when i told her about it.
even though she still wan me to try to change, at the same time, she will no longer force me to change so fast till i couldnt handle.

I love u baby.
=]

clear

Mixing with a group or even jus one lesbian, doesn't make you a lesbian.
if you are one, then u will be one.

who say i used to be straight?
no one knows whether i used to be bisexual or not.
even i myself also dunno. I jus assumed that i was straight. because when i was young, i nv had any gf. but i do like girls be4? so what does it mean then.

and to agree with rae, happiness can be found regardless of gender. so to . , From what i see and read, i assume that you're a straight guy, maybe know me personally.
and if you do, please, either u show yrself up, or jus stop bothering about how my life is.

what kind of era is this now?
Accept the fact man!

and one warning, dun you dare to start commenting about my friends. It's my warning, a very serious one, to you.
even my own gf dun comment about my own group of frens.

try me, if u dare.

Love

U are not here physically when i need you the most.
but it's okay,

I know you are here with me mentally, taking care of me, helping me to destress.
thank you baby.

I know you wan to help me and so on. But i dun wan you to stress together with me. i rather stress alone.

it's time for me to slp.
headaches.
good night.

night baby! sleep well.

Stresssssss.....

This week is submission week!

whereby everyone is getting like almost no sleep at all. and so on.

it's a week to slim down totally.

I totally have no appetite to eat even though i'm hungry.
i totally like lack of sleep.
and now having mild headache.

i hope i'm on track.
seriously.

Favourite song for now.

It's on repeating mode on my itunes!!!!

It's really nice.
go and listen to it!!!

to the . (full stop) that has been tagging my my tagboard.

I dunno you, and i hope, i really dunno who you are in real life. and maybe u are jus some random stranger that passed by my blog.

thanks for your concern and all. but you're not me or maybe can say you're not gal.. so maybe you have no idea what we want.

pls don hide from someone you really care , show them. don come and show to someone you donno.

=]

everything jus sucks to the core.

Everything jus sucks to the core without money.

everything need money.
eat, walk, travel.

broke like shit.
dun even dare to eat outside.

shall survive on maggi mee.

i need fast cash, any job available???

Grumpi-ness

Eating mac, half way, then rush to toilet, and realised, i jus had the time of the month.
like wtf.

and it's cramping now. double wtf.

i cant imagine tmr. how the cramp will like.
triple wtf.

New up!

New tattoo.

i love it.

silly? stupid?
what's the hurry?
i dun think that way, i do it because i want to.

woke up tis morning with much displease.
and decided to jus get out of the house.
no matter how many time she missed call me, she text me, i jus want to be alone.
then random thought, i wanna get a tattoo.
so i went down and get it done.

problems, problems.
school, work, family, and so on and so fore.
so sick of it.
i jus hope everyone will jus like live happily ever after?
which is impossible.

oh well.

yup.

中秋节快乐

It's our 1st month

I nv really blog about my relationship in my blog. this current one.

since it's the 1st month, i decided to blog about it.


Our honeymoon lasted 3 days and we already start quarrelling.

you and me,
our character mostly the same, temper the same, attitude also the same.
we have the same horoscope, born in the same years, same month, jus a day apart.
couple with the same character, can be a very very very good thing, or it can turn out to be a very very very bad thing as well.

yes, our honeymoon didnt lasted for 3 month (which is supposed to be for new relationship i guessed).
i tout the moment when we quarrel, i have the thinking we wont last through a month or so.
and yet, now, it's our 1st month together.

i always dun believe in relationship, and now i still not fully believe.
ever since the past fail relationship, i had given up on love.
i dunno about how am i gg to be like in the future, but i know i love how things are now, and i'm happy being together with you.

happy 1st month-sary.
thank you for your present, i love it.
and i hope you like the one i gave you as well.

Doom's Day 21/12/2012

Apparently i heard end of the world will be on 21 december 2012.

only jus 3 more years.
I'll be 25 then.

and only 25 and i need to die liao.

i was watching discovery channel.
alot of things related to end of the world.

what will lead to end of the world.

super volcano?

Misused of nuclear weapons or sth?

War?

sickness? easily transmitted deadly virus?

Alien invasion?

metors attacks which will jus burn us like bbq?

global warming? rising of the earth temperature?
1 degree increase in our global thermometer will lead to the extinction of corals, expansion of desert and depleting of living things.
2 degree increase in our global thermometer will lead to melting of the north pole, leading to more floods, and natural disaster, even stronger one.
3-5 degree increase will lead o most of the ice melted and we will see huge part of land thaat is not so productive to live on.
5-6 degree will lead to millions or billion of humans starve to death which will lead to the mass extinction!

a real live "Terminator" movie portray on earth?
i mean u nv know that one fine day, intelligence will turn their back again us.
machines and so on have been helping human being, and u nv know one day machines can even help us fight a war. though now machines are usually remote control now, but in the future they may jus be in auto mode and turn their back ard us?
imagine that.

atomic pacman? eating humans?

being sucked up by black hole?

Ice age for the whole earth?

Death of the sun?
explosion of the sun that burn the earth.
sun flare that will harm the earth?

Oh my.
I guess, i'll jus die young.
=]

too many things

I having so many things in my mind.

I'm so sick of them.

so many issues.
I need to work harder.

jiayou bah jiselle.

I can feel a lil stress on my shoulder already.
i need to work hard, and earn more money.

I wanna help u.
U beat around the bush, like asking me to leave u, even though u love me, yet u jus dun wan to be my burden. u dun wan to be jus like my ex, who is so useless. u jus dun wan to make me suffer.
I wan to be fair.
want to suffer? then suffer together!
want me to be happy? then happy together!

fuck.

i dun feel like talking about it already.
stop

scar

I burnt my hand at work yesterday!!
u see the scar!!??!

damn it.
it's still painful.

i had to bandage to work today.
to avoid any touching of the injure part with anything.

have been scooping ice cream for hours.
legs are tired, back is aching.
so damn tired.

but the OT pay today is worth it.

tmr not working!!! off day for me before starting school on tue!!
so sick of school now.

where is my holiday!!!!
booohoo.

Good morning

It's a raining morning.
so cooling. it's a day that you can sleep more than u want to.

BUT!
I got to work.
the weekend will be spend on working.
full shift! money please come in fast!!!
I have been working quite a number of OT. and i hope the money will be good. =]

I'm getting too poor already.
Recently, i'm spending too much. it's so draining.

anyway, i got to go work soon.
ta ta.

So wrong

Me being stiff, with the fuck care attitude, with a tough character.

is being categorized as sth is wrong.

"it's jus not girly at all"
"it's not a femme type of character"
"why are you so "man"?"

why are u "this" why are u "that"

If i have to accept who u are, u also have to accept who i am.

to end the whole tiff or arguement, "well, we only get take a step at a time."

oh well.

speechless.

stressed up

Yeap.

it's already 4.39am! and i still working on my school work! so tired now and sweating like shit.
tonight weather is damn F warm!!!

grrr.

Infographic done.

magazine cover half way i guess.

newsletter- not started yet.

character design- need to edit.

sketches for 2 lessons!!!

i'm so going crazy!!!!

enough

I'm so sick of everything.

i dunno anything and everything anymore. i seem to be in fault always.

Which one do you prefer? =]

so?

=]

Highlighted hair

Mayb not be able to see properly.
But whatever lah. sian

not in good mood.

alcoholic

have i become an alcoholic.
st james for 2 night straight.

anyway,
i jus highlighted my hair.
like it.
hopefully people wont call my ah lian.

it's been 5 years since i last dyed my hair.

will post up the picture soon.

I need Boozing badly

Booze-deprived.

Need some.

where?

drunk?

RANDOM!

For who i am

My mum, hates me for who i am.

My birth mother.

yea, She hates me for who i am.
for me being crooked.
for me talking on the phone often.

she scolded me, together with her being on the phone with me.
threaten her, threaten me.
etc etc.

Mum, i do love u.
but i'm so sorry to say,
and i hate u at the same time.

Leave me alone, and u get peace,
Get control of me and u will get hell.

Shut the f up, even though u are my mum

So what?

please kindly accept that your lovely daughter is a lesbian.

Yes, once bitten twice shy. but being gay will always be gay.
Take it or leave it, your daughter is like that. u cant change tis fucking fact!!

Don't want a lesbian daughter?
then throw me away.
Dun recognise me as your daughter.

I dun give a shit.

Yes u gave birth to me.
yes, i do love u.

but hello?
It's MY life!!
MINE!

got this clear!

so many things happen today.
I jus feel like mia-ing

=]

The way u look at me and smile.
Looks sweet.

Fever

In the end, i had fever.

but now the temperature went down so still alright.

It's raining heavily at east side.

and i'm feeling hungry now.

Boo hoo.

I need to rest. tonight movie.
=]

Sniff sniff

Gao wei max!!

I having a cold, running nose, sore throat, and also coughs.

how can my life be better?!!

thanks for the medicine that u brought all the way down. =]

Drink drink and drink.

I'm not drunk.

jus very tipsy.

hurray to alcohol!!!

F

I'm F sleepy now.

I'm a F person, who wants no commitment, nothing.
I enjoy how i am now. and i have no F intention to mislead people.

good F night.

stuff

Apparently, today i'm in a pissy mood.

being aeroplane-d
waited for people for an hour.

these 2 things is in the so called "the thing i hate to kena"

within that hour, i called, i text, no replies at all. and finally when i got one, none is coming, and that make me look like a fool in the mall, waiting, and so on.

so in the end, i travel down to west side to look for frens.
and then supper.

Lesson learn-
i'm not gg to meet frens when they are not confirm with anything. as is 100% confirm!

argh so pissed off

For what?

I didn't know that for someone i didn't talk to for a very long time,
Know about my new piercing.
Only close frens knows about it and school mates.

but apparently, i didn't mention in my blog and so on and what's make it so weird is that, someone whom i nv contact anymore knows about it.

so when i know it, i was hmm. totally no comment.

i know u still read my blog so on and so for, and i didnt say anything or what so ever. it's your choice, internet belong to everyone.

i jus dun like the fact that since i'm out o your life, u are still getting regular update by people.
nothing against it.

jus a random thought.

no names mentioned.

National day.

So whassup with my National day?
Yess i know it's like 2-3 days back.
been lazy to update blog.

clubbing, alcohol, drunk, WATERFALL.
haha.

But i was having fun that night.

cux our group was quite big that night.

Peektures!










Love the Twoqueensparty pledge.
It's awsome.

ok i know my fringe look damn weird. i know.
hate my fringe to the max.


There are things that i can't do.
but i will decide on the things that i want to do.
and everyone knows what is the things i have decided.
cux i have been repeating them.

I'm still moody, but, i guess, that's life.

sleepless night?

I went offline.

trying to stone till i fall aslp.
but it fails.

my eyes jus dun wan to close.
my mind jus dun wan to stop running.
my body jus keep turning and turning.

i need to wake up at 7 later for school.
what should i do.

a whole day class.

school sucks.
work sucks.
everything sucks.

i pray for things to be better.

for now, leave me alone.
i'm happier alone somehow.

No oxygen

I feel as if, there's no oxygen in the air.

It's a secret.

I do not want anything.

Leave me alone.

Random.

Rarr

Latest addicton

These are a few latest addictions for me.
have been blasting full blast at home since yesterday.

i always love Jrock, but i dun show it.
people love jrock and show it by wearing the same kind of clothes (no offence, i'm jus saying about myself).

I jus love the music.
and i wear the clothes that express my personality. =]

My jrock love is always inside my lovely Ipod. =]

Off day!

Yuhoo!

No school.
No work.

OFF DAY!!

at night will be twinny's bday celebration!


Anyway,
as you all can see from the picture.
Yes i trim my hair.
with short fringe which is bang LOOK ALIKE!
look alike only.

repeat again.
It's not bang!

and no, i dun look cute in it.
damn.
hate the auntie that cut so short for me.
now i look like some retard.

boohoo.

i need my fringe to grow longer and faster!
=]

I think menses is coming.
i feel the pain everywhere.
and beware people,
you all gotta be careful around me.
esp during these period of time.
every month.

rarr~

Msw babes!
meet up soon!

Bang bang bang

Headache is kinda killing me.

have been using ciggies as my painkillers.
mass smoking away.

anyway, i have been thinking back alot of stuff and so on.

first up, smoking.

so what if a girl smoke?
what differences does it make between a girl who smokes and a guy who smokes?
Humans always say "when you see a girl who is pretty and smokes, it destroys everything."

All bullshit.

So does it mean that a good looking guy who smoke also will destroy everything?


Secondly, Human, males, females.

Humans always put females in a more disadvantage than males.
They always think that males are more capable in anything than females.
It's a different century my dears.

I strongly believe that woman will achieve much better than man in the near future. (i didn't say this to criticize males)
I just find that world sometime is being really unfair.


Thirdly, Pageant.

2 words.

Pure Darkness.

my 4th is a secret.

i think i'll stop here.
my headache is really killing me.

I'm heading to bed.

tata~

love, jiselle.

=]

Another desire done.

Next up!

Touching up of my tattoo!

but when i have the money to!

Have a smoke, have a break.

Yea,
Have a smoke,
Have a break.

Finally,
The MSW is over.
Congras to those who win those titles,
and also to those who didnt win anything, which includes me,
you guys are still as beautiful as u are from the deep inside my heart.

I can finally rest well,
take a break,
Sleep more,
no need to rush to rehearsal like some crazy girl,
no need to carry heels to school because i have to rush to rehearsal after school.

Whee~

There are some major and minor disappointment, but I don't think it will be good to say it out.
Fate decided it, so be it.

It doesn't matter.

I just hope, it will be better in the future.
=]

I'm hungry~~

Rehearsals

2 Days of rehearsal.

Friday will be the final.

hmm.

I jus hope to get it over and done with.

Problems problems and more problems.
Internal and external.

Oh well.

Stress

Stress Bugs are bothering me now.

Work, School work, Msw, Rehearsals etc.

So many things,
So lil time.

Help.

I'm feeling the stress already.

Movie Marathon

First up,

Harry potter and the half blood prince.
not Alright. not bad, but not as exciting as the previous harry potter's movies.

I always have the tendency to type "Harry Potter" to "Happy Potter".

Boo.

Next,
The Haunting in Connecticut.

Not very scary.

Jus the sound that makes you "chua tio"

Anyway, My Msw Finals is on this coming friday.
Damn tiring.
Hope to get over and done with asap.

It's kinda draining my energy away.

Monday to wedness have 3 hours of rehearsal each day. at night.
imagine, at bishan.
damn it.

Who want to ask me to eat supper?
=]

I know i will be hungry after the rehearsal.

I know i have not been blogging often recently.
seldom will leave my blog update for like many days.
but recently have been to drain out to blog. and nothing to blog about.

so tata. back to work.

Cho Cho Choco Chocolate!

Thanks once again.
It's nice.

No one

No one knows how i feel like.

The fear to commit.

The fear to fall in love.

The fear to be in love.

No one.

No one know.

No one ever know.

MSW Preview 18-07-09

Today was dead tired.

Yesterday at clarke for the food fes is already tiring enough,
then today preview, reach there at 8.45.

1 grp make up, 1 grp rehersal, 1 group hair and so on.
was damn busy.
and everything was like damn long.

and i have to be in heels all time.

dead tired.

anyway, was surprised today.
thanks.

i love the flowers. =]



ps:
I'm on Strait times on saturday 18/7 paper.
try finding me.