Another day past

Today is not consider as a good day actually to start with, but it ended well somehow.

I mean ever since last night, bb and i have been like quarrelling.

I feel so frustrated, irritated, i almost cannot stand it.
the feeling is like being forced to and i hate the feeling.
It's so irritating. so frustrating.
i feel like banging the wall or jus jump and die.
So fucking hate it.

But somehow,
Bb appeared infront of me and things turned out good.
I mean in the phone, we can quarrel like hell.
but when she appear in front of me, i jus like calm down somehow.
manage to see her.
It's a good thing.
but she herself is not feeling well.
and i dun like the fact that she always put me in the first place in everything.
it will jus tired herself out.
and make herself more sick only.

I do not know what's wrong seriously about me, on me.
It's like i'm like a time bomb, or landmine, jus one slightly touch and u will get bombed by me.
Sigh.
Bb experienced it le.
Guilty though but really i jus can'r really control myself.
Hate myself for being like tat.
Maybe its pms mode, maybe jus not enough sleep, not enough rest.
don't know.

From young, i tend to keep alot of things to myself.
Ask me to say it out somehow, it;s a bit difficult.
it's a habit.
But ya, i know, it can be changed.
BUT
how long do i need to take to change it.
Days, weeks, months, years?
I don't know.
But at least now, i will try to tell things to bb.
Cux i know she will be there for me.

sigh.

Anyway.
Today bb is damn funny,
keep imagining that she is a cat, being put inside a toaster and being toasted to death.
"the meow-ing" sound that she makes is like saying "help me, I'm feeling so toasted, and seriously, i'm dying! HELP!!!"

MEOW MEOW MEOW MEow Meow meow meow meow meow

HAHA.

still got one more thing that she did is making her damn fucking cute.

BUT.

I forget.

Bb forget as well.

oh well.

At least it's a evening night well spend.



Ilovebb.