I had this lovely boyfriend.
We've been together for 3 years and we broke up.
It's not like he did anything very wrong.
It's jus that i couldn't take it anymore.
our problems, are always there.
They had never been solved.
We never solved them.
They just continue to be in there.
In the period of 3 years,
we broke up 2-3 times,
It's all i mentioned.
Why.
because i feel the stress, i feel the sadness, i feel the emotional burden.
I will have the tendency to just let go of sth, and that is my relationship.
But in the end,
He still waited for me, continue to go after me.
and back together again.
He's always be at my side when needed.
He still loves me till now.
listen to my problem, help me whenever he can.
no one can be as good as him.
Yea he's a Malaysian. so?
Every one has the impression whereby malaysian are all players, are all "bad" people.
He's the exception.
He's the one that i loved the most through my 20 years of life.
Till now, he holds a special place inside my heart.
a place whereby, everyone has for a particular person, a friend, not lover.
someone you are grateful for.
someone you thank god for letting this particular person to be in your life once.
someone you learn things from.
Yes, i learned alot of things from him.
Thank you.
After him,
I turned.
Turned crooked.
Maybe i used to be bisexual.
as in i used to like girls when i'm at the age of 15 or 16.
but i nv work into a relationship with girls before.
I met her.
through online.
our first meet up is for movie.
at the cathay.
with yanru. she got free tickets for us.
from that day onwards,
we meet up often.
and be together.
i did regret.
not knowing her more before stepping into a relationship with her.
i get hurt.
emotionally more than anything else.
I loved her.
so i have to leave her.
but in the end, we jus end up, dating each other.
we are not together, jus dating.
there are good times and bad times.
which one is more?
what do you think?
i loved her.
used to.
jus that, this love, turned into hatred in the very end.
There are misunderstanding and from this misunderstanding, i saw the ugly side of her.
that is so scary, and then i decided, that's enough. and left.
This is the only picture i have of her left.that day i decided to stop everything,
the last tear i drop because of her.
all her stuff, i threw away.
the stuffs she given to me.
those i can return, i returned.
number deleted,
msn blocked and deleted.
End of it.
Somehow,
After experiencing the taste of love,
I think it's really tiring.
and i can really get my heart shattered totally.
It's really hard to get me to like someone easily anymore.
Now whatever i wan to do now,
Is to work, work and work.
Earn more money.
I miss those days when i actually became a total crazy workaholic.
Whereby i can jus work almost everyday without rest.
Now old liao, but still can work as much as i can.
anyway it's late already.
and i still waiting for my hair to dry.
tata~~~
2 comments:
Takes time. You silly ol' kitty.
*Smiles and gives a big tight squeeze
At least you remember that you were originally STRAIGHT!
That's how you were, and how you're meant to be.
All women, all men, are created to be straight, and through arrogance and vanity often go "crooked", as you, sadly, have.
It's so depressing that your boyfriend, clearly such a good young man, has to now settle for being only your friend, and having to, what?, 'help you', and be 'there for you' as you start to "date" (what a quaint way to wrongly put it!) God know's how many other girls.
And that will NEVER be right...because "lesbianism" can NEVER be right, "lesbianism" is EVIL...there is NO amount of 'takes time' that can make this sin 'work', CROOKED can never 'work'!
NO female is ever 'meant' to be "bisexual" or "lesbian", these are SINS, that come from vanity.
Stop it, and get back to your ever- Loving boyfriend.
He needs you.
ALL men need women, and women need men, we are MEANT for each other.
Go back to him.
SKOT
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