Up next

Up Next, ISP.

Normal Subjects assessments is over. It ended yesterday. ISP starts on the Tues. and from what i heard from my friends, there are tons of things to do. Damn. I find myself have not been working hard enough for my school. i need to work harder. like seriously. but how to?

Will i be able to work hard for my upcoming ISP?

I need to work hard.

sigh.

I need to go to work later.
so sian, but today is public holiday. so the pay will be slightly more.
I cant wake for end of the month of my pay. I have an aim to do sth already.
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*this pic we took be4 we even start dating.

I miss baby. badly.

We had a nice talk yesterday, and i feel that she can be the one that i can be open up to. For the past 22 years, i always keep things inside my hearts, not intentionally, it's jus naturally that i find things have no point to tell ppl, so naturally, i'll jus dun say out.
anyway for the past 22 years, it's really difficult for me to open my mouth and tell things to ppl, even own partner. i will say, but not everything.
My ex partner, dun even bother to ask me to open up to them, only her, only this current one, have been keep asking me to be open up to her. sometime, to say the truth, i get very irritated when she keep asking me to open up to her, i jus think that she dun understand how much i have been trying to open up to her, and it's really difficult for me to do it. it's making me very tired.
yesterday, i jus decided to tell her that it's really tiring to force me to say things out and so on, and i cried.
I nv cry in front of baby before. I cried.
and I feel that she understand how i feel when i told her about it.
even though she still wan me to try to change, at the same time, she will no longer force me to change so fast till i couldnt handle.

I love u baby.
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