Jiselle want to party to relieve stress!!
from all the working and so on.
Somehow,
I love to work now, the money, the effort.
the sweat and the blood.
Yes, blood.
accidents do happen.
and blood flows and so on.
i dunno have cuts, bruises, aches and strains everywhere.
oh well.
that's life.
no.
maybe.
That's MY life.
Friday, May 22, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
past pictures.
Some old old pictures.
from my previous blog.
memories.
range from year 2006 to 2009.
you can figure out yrself which one is the oldest and which one is the most recent one.
It's not arranged in order.
got to go sleep already.
have to wake up at 730am!!!
oh man.
from my previous blog.
memories.
range from year 2006 to 2009.
you can figure out yrself which one is the oldest and which one is the most recent one.It's not arranged in order.
got to go sleep already.
have to wake up at 730am!!!
oh man.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Memories
When I was straight,
I had this lovely boyfriend.
We've been together for 3 years and we broke up.
It's not like he did anything very wrong.
It's jus that i couldn't take it anymore.
our problems, are always there.
They had never been solved.
We never solved them.
They just continue to be in there.
In the period of 3 years,
we broke up 2-3 times,
It's all i mentioned.
Why.
because i feel the stress, i feel the sadness, i feel the emotional burden.
I will have the tendency to just let go of sth, and that is my relationship.
But in the end,
He still waited for me, continue to go after me.
and back together again.
He's always be at my side when needed.
He still loves me till now.
listen to my problem, help me whenever he can.
no one can be as good as him.
Yea he's a Malaysian. so?
Every one has the impression whereby malaysian are all players, are all "bad" people.
He's the exception.
He's the one that i loved the most through my 20 years of life.
Till now, he holds a special place inside my heart.
a place whereby, everyone has for a particular person, a friend, not lover.
someone you are grateful for.
someone you thank god for letting this particular person to be in your life once.
someone you learn things from.
Yes, i learned alot of things from him.
Thank you.
After him,
I turned.
Turned crooked.
Maybe i used to be bisexual.
as in i used to like girls when i'm at the age of 15 or 16.
but i nv work into a relationship with girls before.
I met her.
through online.
our first meet up is for movie.
at the cathay.
with yanru. she got free tickets for us.
from that day onwards,
we meet up often.
and be together.
i did regret.
not knowing her more before stepping into a relationship with her.
i get hurt.
emotionally more than anything else.
I loved her.
so i have to leave her.
but in the end, we jus end up, dating each other.
we are not together, jus dating.
there are good times and bad times.
which one is more?
what do you think?
i loved her.
used to.
jus that, this love, turned into hatred in the very end.
There are misunderstanding and from this misunderstanding, i saw the ugly side of her.
that is so scary, and then i decided, that's enough. and left.
This is the only picture i have of her left.
that day i decided to stop everything,
the last tear i drop because of her.
all her stuff, i threw away.
the stuffs she given to me.
those i can return, i returned.
number deleted,
msn blocked and deleted.
End of it.
Somehow,
After experiencing the taste of love,
I think it's really tiring.
and i can really get my heart shattered totally.
It's really hard to get me to like someone easily anymore.
Now whatever i wan to do now,
Is to work, work and work.
Earn more money.
I miss those days when i actually became a total crazy workaholic.
Whereby i can jus work almost everyday without rest.
Now old liao, but still can work as much as i can.
anyway it's late already.
and i still waiting for my hair to dry.
tata~~~
I had this lovely boyfriend.
We've been together for 3 years and we broke up.
It's not like he did anything very wrong.
It's jus that i couldn't take it anymore.
our problems, are always there.
They had never been solved.
We never solved them.
They just continue to be in there.
In the period of 3 years,
we broke up 2-3 times,
It's all i mentioned.
Why.
because i feel the stress, i feel the sadness, i feel the emotional burden.
I will have the tendency to just let go of sth, and that is my relationship.
But in the end,
He still waited for me, continue to go after me.
and back together again.
He's always be at my side when needed.
He still loves me till now.
listen to my problem, help me whenever he can.
no one can be as good as him.
Yea he's a Malaysian. so?
Every one has the impression whereby malaysian are all players, are all "bad" people.
He's the exception.
He's the one that i loved the most through my 20 years of life.
Till now, he holds a special place inside my heart.
a place whereby, everyone has for a particular person, a friend, not lover.
someone you are grateful for.
someone you thank god for letting this particular person to be in your life once.
someone you learn things from.
Yes, i learned alot of things from him.
Thank you.
After him,
I turned.
Turned crooked.
Maybe i used to be bisexual.
as in i used to like girls when i'm at the age of 15 or 16.
but i nv work into a relationship with girls before.
I met her.
through online.
our first meet up is for movie.
at the cathay.
with yanru. she got free tickets for us.
from that day onwards,
we meet up often.
and be together.
i did regret.
not knowing her more before stepping into a relationship with her.
i get hurt.
emotionally more than anything else.
I loved her.
so i have to leave her.
but in the end, we jus end up, dating each other.
we are not together, jus dating.
there are good times and bad times.
which one is more?
what do you think?
i loved her.
used to.
jus that, this love, turned into hatred in the very end.
There are misunderstanding and from this misunderstanding, i saw the ugly side of her.
that is so scary, and then i decided, that's enough. and left.
This is the only picture i have of her left.that day i decided to stop everything,
the last tear i drop because of her.
all her stuff, i threw away.
the stuffs she given to me.
those i can return, i returned.
number deleted,
msn blocked and deleted.
End of it.
Somehow,
After experiencing the taste of love,
I think it's really tiring.
and i can really get my heart shattered totally.
It's really hard to get me to like someone easily anymore.
Now whatever i wan to do now,
Is to work, work and work.
Earn more money.
I miss those days when i actually became a total crazy workaholic.
Whereby i can jus work almost everyday without rest.
Now old liao, but still can work as much as i can.
anyway it's late already.
and i still waiting for my hair to dry.
tata~~~
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Was Sick
Dizziness.
The feeling of puking.
no i did not have any alcohol yesterday.
I felt the cold air all the way inside my bones
And i start to broke into col sweat.
I didnt know i actually black out at home, or i jus fall aslp.
It was terrible.
I totally wrapped myself up in the blanket,
when thought the weather is damn fucking hot.
now i'm still alright,
Jus feeling a bit, not well.
Oh well. back to work.
The feeling of puking.
no i did not have any alcohol yesterday.
I felt the cold air all the way inside my bones
And i start to broke into col sweat.
I didnt know i actually black out at home, or i jus fall aslp.
It was terrible.
I totally wrapped myself up in the blanket,
when thought the weather is damn fucking hot.
now i'm still alright,
Jus feeling a bit, not well.
Oh well. back to work.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Past few days
Tues-thurs
Working for TFWA Asia pacific.
Thurs night.
Zirca.
Herstory party
fun.
Dancing.
Bad music though.
Rae's drunk.
Ben's high.
I'm the fucking sober one.
Pictures!
Friday night.
Jus came back from drinking with jerine they all.
they are so high.
Had tons of beer i think.
I'm still the fucking sober one.
Y is it that difficult to get high. even with tons of alcohol.
Working for TFWA Asia pacific.
Thurs night.
Zirca.
Herstory party
fun.
Dancing.
Bad music though.
Rae's drunk.
Ben's high.
I'm the fucking sober one.
Pictures!
Friday night.
Jus came back from drinking with jerine they all.
they are so high.
Had tons of beer i think.
I'm still the fucking sober one.
Y is it that difficult to get high. even with tons of alcohol.
Friday, May 15, 2009
I miss you
Hanna Lai Yanru
Where are you??
I miss you!!!!
Call me alright?!!!!
sigh.
I'm so in a state of breaking down again
Where are you??
I miss you!!!!
Call me alright?!!!!
sigh.
I'm so in a state of breaking down again
please
Please please please.
Leave me alone.
I'm...
speechless.
fucking jus ignore me and lead yr own life.
night ppl.
Leave me alone.
I'm...
speechless.
fucking jus ignore me and lead yr own life.
night ppl.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I can feel...
I can feel my heart is sinking.
deep down under.
hmm..
Maybe jus emo-ing away.
working is fine.
so fucking boring.
Today will be jus
Working, Dinner, Drinking, Partying.
Nice plan huh.
Enjoyable night?
Ha...
Hope so.
My emo-ness is back.
deep down under.
hmm..
Maybe jus emo-ing away.
working is fine.
so fucking boring.
Today will be jus
Working, Dinner, Drinking, Partying.
Nice plan huh.
Enjoyable night?
Ha...
Hope so.
My emo-ness is back.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
Boohoo
Today,
Sent yanru off with sean.
hmm.
She is going to bangkok for her gf.
Oh well.
i'll miss her damn alot.
Bah.
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