today

I had a slackest but yet most health harming job ever today.

and that's call easy money.

=]

The in-charge says, if i turn into a bung or butch,
he can nv hire me again as a model and he will be damn sad.

Haha.

interesting.

I should like

Become a bung/butch!

Haha.

I mean why not.
I love wearing jeans, sneaker.
dress up like a boy like that.

haha.
Good idea right.
I got the height and the looks somemore.






just kidding.

I still love my long hair.
I still love modelling.
I still love being girly sometime.

and i still love putting on make up!
I can't leave my house without any make up on!

seriously.

Haha.

It's been quite sometime since i last blog.

Some pictures update.

Went out with groups of friends on saturday night.
Went to town.
and i think i was sick that time.

York feng with her spec after so freaking long time i didnt see her in specs.

Jo and yanru. (lovely teeth huh)
Jon, Being punished

Lovely darling.



Hahaha. the lighting is nice. *focused on the lighting


She is being mean trying to poke her face while i busy rubbing my eyes.

drinking beer.

Botak jones's finger food. all done.

Jo. reading

Yuzheng and Ren.

Cute lil thing

Turn. and turn somemore

Drink, drink somemore.

Yuki (lovely young kid) and cadeo. (shy to take picture.)

Me and jon. I was in glasses that day.

jon and me talking.



Many things have happened.
and school jus started this week.

Jus 2 days, and i'm about to die already.
So many thigns to do.
So many work to work on.

I still got part time.

I totally have no time anymore.

Sorry, but you have to take this instead.

Some time, i do miss you.
Some time, i don't.

If this is the answer that you wanna get from me.

SO..

If your phone vibrates and that moment you saw my name in it, you mood went downhill,

all i can say is, Thanks.

I didnt know i will make your mood go downhill.

So yup.
you probably wont hear from me.

and u feel like dying while having me in your mind,
Then i guess,

i'll jus make myself disappear in front of you.

It's for u

I got nothing to say anymore.

I jus wanna shut up.

All i did,
is for your own good.
Be it whether u appreciate it or nt.

The things i say.
it's in a wrong way.
but if u wan is jus to mis-interpret it.
then, there's nothing more i can say.

Yes lynn,
I know what u saying and all this. and i dun blame u for knowing all these.
I take in your words to me, and absorb them.
i'm grateful for your words to me.
i really do.

It's jus that,
i don't like she herself even without telling me how it feels like after i say all these.
telling u everything, and showing u all the sms-es that i sent her.
and you r the one who come and tell me.
Upright disappointment.

i don't go around showing people about my fren's messages.
Because i don't like it.
it's fine if she jus tell you,
but instead, she chose to forward u the msges that i sent her.
Which is making me so upset now.

*end


the feeling i'm having now.
I jus wanna cry alone.
and i couldnt be bothered anymore.
your life, your choice, your own decision.

bye.

Vote for me

Vote for me.

http://www.tatarah.com/boty/index.html

if you really wan to.

=]

hugs and kisses.

from time to time

A day has passed,
the anger in me still there.

I cant believe i can be angry for tis long.

I just cant believe that you can be so irresponsible again.

You too much for me to handle.
I'm already stressful enough, and since that school is starting soon, i can't bring myself to like have you as my burden again.

If i can choose,
I wish all these are jus a dream, and i nv get to know u be4.
Yes, it maybe mean, but i cant eat, i cant sleep well, i'm falling sick is all because of u.
overall, i suffered alot because of you.

U know how i talked.
I'm very direct.
too direct.

it may hurt u, but then again, i think this is how i think and i really feels.

Falling sick.

I feel hot yet, my skin feels cold.

I'm running a fever again.

i having throat irritation.

I having cramps.
very very painful.

It hurts so much.

Now i jus wan to cover myself in blanket.
and jus hide in one corner and be alone.

I hate the things happen.
and everyone jus keep asking me to forgive you,
Sorry i cant.
Not now.
I cant bring myself to.

i'm too tired.
tired till i fall sick.
the pain is unbearable.

Fuck you.

All the scene u have created.

u jus keep bugging ppl. pulling ppl down with you.

How much trouble u make.
How much burden you become

and big disappointment i must say.

I'm feeling sick, i'm feeling tired, i'm feeling stress up
all because of the fucking you.

Fuck you.
Fuck everything.

I hate you.

Drink, Drank, Drunk

Yesterday on the Eve of New year,
Went down to eve.

Tons of people,
Having fun there, and yup drink alot.

Apparently, alot of people know that my alcohol level better than some of them, Yet, yesterday is really high and puked.
totally feeling damn uncomfortable.

Luckily, i did not have any hangover, if not, i cant even work today.

Happy New Year everyone!!