hiding

I...

got so many things in my mind.

yet i chose to hide them inside my heart.

and yes,
i'm suffocating.

i..

i can't breathe.

anymore.

night.

Happy birthday!!

Happy Bday Sister jerine.

hope you enjoyed yourself.

big big hugs.

Today, Thursday.

Supposedly i was not working,

and in the end being called to work.

but i went to collect my stuffs in town.

later at about 1pm i need to go back to collect the heels.
unable to collect today.

after work.
I had my booze.
and enjoying my sea breeze.
and jus talking.

i felt relaxed.

during work was moody.
damn moody till i feel like crying.
but i hold my tears back.

okay. off to eat my chicken wing.
night.

Pursue.

I have been really down these days and there's nothing to cheer me up,
or lets say, nothing CAN cheer me up.

I know friends are there and so on.
And yes, I love them all.
But there are times whereby,
once something affected me,
even though i know my friends loves me and so on,
I just can't cheer up.

I can't smile truely anymore.

My life is going to be like that.



When I pursue more time,
I never have enough of them.
When I pursue more rest,
I never have enough of them.
When I pursue happiness,
I never had them.

God doesn't give me what i want.
Because I can never give him what he wants.

I just want to cry,
in silence.

Broken down

Seriously, i break down.

i cried for the whole day

i couldnt take it.

No.
not because of love.

i because of me being emo,
and things happened.

and i had enough already.

totally.

can someone jus kill me pls?

edited.

was cutting my nails and
like one say, one cannot concentrate will tend to injure yrself.

that jus happen after i blogged.

fuck man.

but luckily it's a small cut.
but bleeds alot.

my blood going on free flow.

hey yo

Jus came back from chalet.

Yes in the middle of the night.

chalet of Jervis, Euuren, Jerine, Gap, Jayvon, Jo and me.
these few of us are the main organisors.

Main purpose: Celebrate Jervis 26th bday.

It was fun.

flour, water, water and more water.

there are videos.
and pictures are in Rae's cam.

video will be up in my FB soon.

=]

anyway,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JERVIS.

am i emo-ing? CRAP

I'm still recovering from my sickness.
and i jus got back not long.
how exciting.

my voice changed.
i keep coughing.

and i had alcohol.
and now a Mac Fish burger in front of me.
together with a upsize fries and coke,
with mayo and chilli sauce mixed together.

yes.
Dumb. i'm still eating heaty food.

but...
I don't really give a damn about my health.
No one cares anyway.
one will have to die
it's jus a matter of time only.

Party, music, alcohol, smoking.
I'm enjoying my life before it end.

chewing on my burger,
here i am blogging away.

The funny thing is that, alot of ppl in the club think that i'm attached.
When i told them that i'm single and available,
they were like "OMG ARE U SERIOUS?"
and jus keep asking why.

then i told them.

"Maybe I'm jus picky"
"Nobody wants me. =p"

Taking the 2nd bite of my burger,
Here i am, ending the post soon.

really soon.

Okay bye.

Damn fucking sick.

am actually having fever after i came home yesterday night.

from

38 degree

to

38.1 degree

to

37.7 degree

then go work.

37.0 degree

then dinner break.

37.3 degree

then after work.

38.2 degree.

amazing isnt it.

let me take now again.

38 degree

sigh.

Once Again

I added back a tag board.

so do use it wisely.

spammer will make me remove the tagboard again.

anyway, good afternoon people.

I'm Jus..

I just hate the feeling somehow.

To Charmaine.
I guess you will only see this when you come back from your trips after like 2 weeks?
hahaha. but anyway, be safe on yr trip. BIG TIGHT HUGS.
meet up for lunch or dinner when you're back.
Clubbing as well. =]

night people.
i'm turning in.