Stupid Fire Drill in school

I'm early in school now and i really very lazy to start what i need to start. my ISP. 

just now i came and settle everything down outside the library, and then i saw my print making teacher and he told me got fire drill. 

totally sucks. cuz i totally hate to participate in fire drill. damn it.

so i pack everything back to my bag, and then i just take my time to the 7-eleven. and get a choco milk. haha.

and had a smoke break.

=]

anyway, congras to jerine, my beloved sister, had her 1st month with her girlfriend. =]

will get to see you at tmr halloween party.

speaking of that, i still stuck with what to dress up with. 

thinking jus simple one with vampire teeth or sth. or another option is i still can use my Miss singapore sash, to go there as the finalist! good idea right? i surf the net and got the idea from there. =]

anyway i think i need to start on my school work liao. sian.

will blog again~ 

Movie night that almost make me lose my last bus

Yeap. i watched this together with my girlfriend.

it's an interesting show. kinda like a comedy as well.

My rating: 3.9 out of 5

the 0.1 is for taking too long and i almost miss the last bus home.
if i missed it, i will have to take cab, and i do not have money for can actually. damn.

hate being poor.

Monday Morning Train Crowd.

Actually i wanted to like blog in the train, but i dun have any idea how since i do not have Internet access and i do not know how to blog through the phone or sth. so yeap. i know i'm sua ku.

anyway about this morning crowd in the stupid train.

i usually take to pasir ris then take to bugis for school. but then, it happens that today is a fuck up day. 

Most of the days, i'm too stone to go and notice about how the crowd will be like, but apparently today, i kinda not really stoning, so i notice the crowd.

1. Singaporeans are really fucking kiasu. (i know everyone know that). And yes, i'm a singapore as well. but i'm not as kaisu as them! office people are pains in the asses. following the rules, you are supposed to be queuing behind the yellow line, wait for people to come out, but apparently, some assholes are not doing it. they are taking the risk to get knock down by the train, or even get pulled along with the train. Why are they doing this? Just because they want to like get a seat in the stupid train. i mean i do want a seat as well, but then i won't want to die so young.

2. They don't let people come out 1st, heck care about the queue, as long as they got a seat. there is this office guy, was queueing way behind me, and when the train arrived, i turned and saw him standing beside me! like wtf right? then when some people just want to get out of the train, he just want to get in asap, and me, i'm just being the bad person and block his way. As if i care about him.

In the train..

3. I know my leg is very long, but i can't help it. i already try my best not to block people's way, and i still have people stepping on my foot, without apologising at all. they just look at me as if me having long legs is so fucking wrong.

4. I do not like people to touch me, esp strangers, esp guys, man, or even old man. I just feel uncomfortable. But why do they like to touch me? maybe not purposely, but still, i feel so uncomfortable. I just want them to leave me alone. i already squeezed to a corner and it's not helping.

Getting out of the train.

5. well. it's glad to know that some people are kind enough to make way for the people to get out of the train.

6. I know i'm tall, but then you people do not have to stare at me like some freak jus because i'm standing up from my seats and preparing to leave. It's getting on my nerves.

Totally, Kaisu (super) Singaporeans are a shame to our own country.

That's all.

Got to get back to school work. 

why?

Why can't love be as easy as ABC?

i'm right.
love is complicated.

pictures

as promised.

ZBL and fuckup gastric

ZBL=Zo Bo Lan. (hokkien-do nothing)

now sitting outside my classroom, doing nth, apparently blogging. 

still cant go into my classroom yet, so yeap.

i took a cab to school jus now due to my gastric.

it's still painful though.

super uncomfortable.

fuck.

now i jus waiting for the other class to end their lesson then i can go in and sit down on a chair and do my school work. 

oh shit. 

it's painful.

bye now.

...

Sentosa today with baby.

still alright. pictures will be uploaded soon, nw i super lazy.

and moody.

so not much words, bye.

Up next

Up Next, ISP.

Normal Subjects assessments is over. It ended yesterday. ISP starts on the Tues. and from what i heard from my friends, there are tons of things to do. Damn. I find myself have not been working hard enough for my school. i need to work harder. like seriously. but how to?

Will i be able to work hard for my upcoming ISP?

I need to work hard.

sigh.

I need to go to work later.
so sian, but today is public holiday. so the pay will be slightly more.
I cant wake for end of the month of my pay. I have an aim to do sth already.
=]

*this pic we took be4 we even start dating.

I miss baby. badly.

We had a nice talk yesterday, and i feel that she can be the one that i can be open up to. For the past 22 years, i always keep things inside my hearts, not intentionally, it's jus naturally that i find things have no point to tell ppl, so naturally, i'll jus dun say out.
anyway for the past 22 years, it's really difficult for me to open my mouth and tell things to ppl, even own partner. i will say, but not everything.
My ex partner, dun even bother to ask me to open up to them, only her, only this current one, have been keep asking me to be open up to her. sometime, to say the truth, i get very irritated when she keep asking me to open up to her, i jus think that she dun understand how much i have been trying to open up to her, and it's really difficult for me to do it. it's making me very tired.
yesterday, i jus decided to tell her that it's really tiring to force me to say things out and so on, and i cried.
I nv cry in front of baby before. I cried.
and I feel that she understand how i feel when i told her about it.
even though she still wan me to try to change, at the same time, she will no longer force me to change so fast till i couldnt handle.

I love u baby.
=]

clear

Mixing with a group or even jus one lesbian, doesn't make you a lesbian.
if you are one, then u will be one.

who say i used to be straight?
no one knows whether i used to be bisexual or not.
even i myself also dunno. I jus assumed that i was straight. because when i was young, i nv had any gf. but i do like girls be4? so what does it mean then.

and to agree with rae, happiness can be found regardless of gender. so to . , From what i see and read, i assume that you're a straight guy, maybe know me personally.
and if you do, please, either u show yrself up, or jus stop bothering about how my life is.

what kind of era is this now?
Accept the fact man!

and one warning, dun you dare to start commenting about my friends. It's my warning, a very serious one, to you.
even my own gf dun comment about my own group of frens.

try me, if u dare.

Love

U are not here physically when i need you the most.
but it's okay,

I know you are here with me mentally, taking care of me, helping me to destress.
thank you baby.

I know you wan to help me and so on. But i dun wan you to stress together with me. i rather stress alone.

it's time for me to slp.
headaches.
good night.

night baby! sleep well.