I pretend

When you apologized, i say" it's okay. no worries."

But actually It's not really okay.

totally not okay.

but i still say "it's okay", because i dun wan to be fucking unreasonable gf.

i want to be a gf whereby, not petty, being very reasonable, and best gf.

I tried doing things that i dun usually do. 

it's difficult for me, but i still do.

everyone will tend to compare the current date or gf, with the best ex they ever had, whether be best on bed, best on handling tempers,or whatsoever. compare compare compare.

i fucking hate that.

i just can't stop images, words and voices from going into my mind. 

i need to stop!

fuck.