Apparently...

I do not want to give you promises that i will wait or whatever.

I now i cant wait for long.
I don't the patience to.

Nowadays, even if we broke up, i also don't have a time for myself.
I need time for myself.
I want time for myself.
I just wanna do my own stuff.

Getting a job is for your own good.
Not for me.

Yes, i'm irritated by you.
I hate you pestering me.
Keep asking me to meet you etc when i really tired and want to stay at home.

I won't purposely go and wait or sth like tat.
Jus walk and count a step at a time.

Al i want to do now is to concentrate on my studies.

Alright.

Now our status is different.
I don't really can bring myself to hug you, kiss you or even hold yr hands.

I need my own space yet you r not giving me enough.
even when we r not together.
saying in a mean way,
you have no right to bother abt what i do or where i go.
to say in a nicer way,
you cant stop me from doing the things that i want to do.

hmmm.

i very sick and tired with the things are now and i wan to be left alone.
jus wan to catch up with friends and my studies.

Over due F1 pictures

Tuesday night

I regret treating you good.
Now that i had sort out my thoughts,
I will not treat you like how i used t treat you.

Went home after school.
sit at home and do my stuff.
then jon came over to find me, after knowing that she lost her job.
and i'll jus plainly ignore her.

met up with yanru and yf at eve.
she insisted on tagging along, when all i wanted is to be alone.
and she gotten herself drunk.
for jus 2 bottle of beers.

can catch the last train.
she dragged the time till there no more last train. and i have to cab back.
waste of money.
shouting and anger every where in bugis.
as if i give a shit.

I dun wan to treat you as good as i used to.
Cux u dun really deserved it now.
It's time for you to grow up now. to be mature and hardworking.

sigh.
My 21st birthday next month.
wont have any celebration.
no money to any more.

finally

Finally i have calmed down and really rest.

try not to emo anymore and move on.

Ending or not

Whether the end or not,

no one really knows.

Faded feelings.

Quarrels.

Shouting.

Scolding.

Glad that you understand now why am i doing this and you start to calm down.

if not you will just keep pushing me away.

I'll miss you too.

for now i need to force myself to concentrate on my school work.

no matter what.

enough

I had said enough.

you listen whether you want to believe it or not is your choice.

I guess, this should be the end.

apparently i had enough.


It's not about you stared at me and i'm causing all these now.

I feel so numb till i dun even feel like tearing anymore.
no ears, nothing.

I will no longer invade into your life, care about you or anything else.
your life, your choice.
how you want your life to be, is how you going to create your own life.

i dun even feel like talking anymore.

good bye and good night.

always

I always had enough.

yet i always forgive you.

I always have you making me pissed off.

yet i still forgive you.

I dunno.

I'm confused.

You mention in the sms saying that i don't love you anymore.

What can i say?

Whatever you says count.

I also dunno what or how to explain.

Sorry Girl

Sorry Mei yun.

Didn't make it for your birthday party.

So sorry.

it's killing me!

It's the worst cramp i ever gotten!

so painful.

feeling sick.


damn it.

update

more pic update.

I'm having a bit headache.
sigh.