i don't know

I have been making effort to go and find you, fetch you from work every single day.
without complaints.
appreciated i know.

but do you know that i'm actually tired?

maybe the tiredness is making me very moody, grumpy and what so ever.

i already bring myself to ignore whatever is at home.
and when my mum called, i already very tired already.
i jus wan to go home.
i didnt ask you to send me home.
i didnt complain anything.

Whatever i said seem like ju like useless.
i'm still affected by my mum.
whatever.

seriously, i can't bring myself to go home late ok.
and somemore, the longer i dragged, the more tired i become as well as my headache just become more and more painful.

"that" particular thing is not important lo.
Why can't we just postpone?

i still have make up lesson in the morning later at 9am in the morning.
i have to wake up at 7.
already deprived of sleep already.
still.......

I can't really totally ignore my mum.
going home all this is still my responsibility as well.

now i jus heck care whether she wants or don't want me to smoke.
as if i care.
i'm gg home late. but not to the extend whereby i do not have the last bus to catch.

and then? waste money to cab home?
Now i do not even have money to eat already.
trying to save the money for the lunch tmr.

if you r doing sth that fake, and being forced to.
i can see as well.
don't have to force yourself to do so.

cause it will only make me more upset.

and now what?
don't even get a response, a reply, nothing.
still say i reply late, and i'm online and yet you didnt get to c me.
nothing.

Why am i trying to stay awake, and waiting for your reply instead.
I should just ignore and go sleep.


Yes,
maybe i had changed.
Change to someone that you don't know in the 1st place.

Fuck lah. y i'm lke listening to love songs.
sigh.

I'm gg to bed.

night.