ok. great

Great great great.

having tooth ache now.
everything bad jus keep flowing in.

should i jus keep my tears holding in or jus let it flow out free of charge.

terrible terrible.

should i even bother about them?
about my mummy, about my fucked up family.
so great.

I know that i do not have the worst family. but it's bad enough.

now, i even have a headache.

hmm.

bb sent me home today.
doing those retarded but cute stuff.
singing something that she jus on the spot compose.
it's damn cute. lah.

she have been like trying to do sth for me, esp when i'm in the state like this. but then, there's nothing that she can do. i do not blame her for that.
i know.
cux it's my problems.
It's not yr fault k?

sigh.

seriously mummy, please do not make me hate you.
I already hate my sister to the core already.
better not be you, cux it wont be good to have your own daughter to hate you so so much.
isn't it.

stop interfering into my life.

cux once you do, i will jus get more and more rebellious and wont listen to you.

smoking bad for health?
like what you say?
I jus hope i will die earlier.

i had depression a period of time where you yourself don't even know ahout it.
what kind of mum are you anyway?
when i'm cutting myself, where the hell are you, you don't even fucking know that i did that be4.
when i so fucking down and i want to go and die, you wont even know.
so when 1 fine day, i really jus drop dead, you say you regret? please don;t make me laugh, cux it's already too late by then.

control my life?
do that after you know how to become a good mum, that worth respect by your own children and not having your children hating you.

yes, i'm not a good, clever daughter you have.
SO WHAT?
i don't give a shit.

Best. disown me.

as if i care.